Rude ~ Phan

Hospital

I apologize for any typos in this chapter- I'm typing this with a kitten wrapped around my neck

okay lets goooooo

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Phil's POV

I felt myself come to consciousness, I kept my eyes closed. I didn't know where I was and my head was killing me. And I felt a weird feeling on my left wrist. I felt torpid and like my whole body was weighed down with lead.

I started to slowly open my eyes, it was hard because of the stupid lead.

"Oh, you're awake! Let me go contact your family", a lady in blue scrubs said to me.

Wait, isn't that a nurse?? 

I glanced down at my wrist to see a needle sticking into it. Let's just say that I freaked out only a little. 

I felt my eyes widen and I itched to pull it out. I'm obviously in a hospital.

Why am I in a hospital? What happened?

I thought back to what I last remembered. I remembered filming my video and being sad. I remember reaching under my bed for a...

Oh. I must have drunk too much and passed out. I wonder who found me?

I hear a noise in front of me and glance up. My best friend at the time, Ava, stood there. She looked tired but she smiled when she saw me awake. The smile didn't reach her eyes though and I knew that she had been the one to find me.

She was my best friend for a reason, she had shoulder length blue hair and she always wore black. She was confident in herself and she cared about the people she chose to be around her. Her only flaw would be that she cares too much.

"Hey, how are you feeling?" She asked me carefully like I was fragile.

I didn't trust my voice so I just shrugged back. She looked down and then ran at me and hugged me. She sniffed a little and said,

"I thought I had lost you. Don't ever do that again!"

With a small smile, I hugged her back and nodded. I had a million questions that I wanted to ask her but I couldn't speak them. Instead, I hugged her until the doctor came in.

"Hello Phillip. Your parents have been contacted about your situation and they are on their way. Let's talk about what happened and what is going to happen." He paused for a moment.

Ava went and sat down in the chair placed next to my bed. I nodded slowly.

"So, you were drinking alcohol two days ago and you experienced alcohol poisoning. Alcohol poisoning can be defined as the consumption of large amounts of alcohol in short periods of time. It can lead to a coma or death. You were very lucky, Mr. Lester. Anyways, from now on you must drink alcohol slower or better yet don't drink alcohol. 

You are not allowed to drink any alcohol for 2 weeks to allow your body to heal. We have some painkillers right here for your head." He pointed at the painkillers on the bedside table.

 "Also, we have found some scars from previous self harm, is this correct?"

I wince and nod once again. Ava just stares at me.

"So what I am assuming is that you use alcohol as your getaway from depression or anxiety?"

My eyes widen and I cough. My eyes water and I glance down at my bed. After a while, I nod.

"This is very common, we suggest that you rely on meds instead of alcohol. Alcohol can cause poisoning and other severe consequences. Do you have meds for depression or anxiety?"

Meekly, "Both."

Ava gapes at me.

"So then I am assuming that they do not work then?"

"No, they do not work." I was gaining a little more confidence, might as well be honest and tell Ava. I have to be brave for her.

"We can prescribe you new pills for both and you can report to us how well they work. How does that sound?"

"Great", I saw with a hint of sarcasm.

"Okay I will have a nurse bring you those pills right away. For now, rest up. You'll be staying here for 2 more days so that we can monitor your body's reaction to the new meds and how it processes your stomach being pumped. 

Alright, I'm leaving now. Press the red button right next to your right hand if there are any emergencies. Otherwise, the nurse will be up shortly with your pills and visiting regularly. Stay safe, Phillip. I'll be monitoring you. Bye now."

He walked out the door and I gulped. Ava was probably going to kill me. I looked down at my lap because I couldn't look her in the eyes right now. She deserved a best friend that wouldn't be depressed and not even tell her.

She deserves way more than me.

After a while of me playing with my fingers, I hear a small cough. I still couldn't look at her, I just couldn't face reality.

 Eventually, I feel her sit down in between my legs on the bed. I kept playing with my fingers.

I felt her put her finger under my chin and force me to look at her. She was crying and her eyes were rimmed with red. You could see the sadness radiating off of her.

I close my eyes to try not to cry from seeing her cry. When I open my eyes, I see her leaning closer.

Her eyes were falling shut and she started tilting her head to the right. Before I could react, I felt her lips on mine. I was too startled to do anything. She bit my lip, making me gasp.  She slid her tongue into my mouth and I could taste her tears.

I immediately snapped into reality and pushed her off. I started to cry and I heard her gasp. 

"I'm gay," I muttered softly.

"Phil- wait you're gay??? What the fuck! I thought you loved me?? How could you?" Ava shrieked. 

I could feel myself shrink into myself. I couldn't breathe or see. I started sobbing, I didn't want her to kiss me. I had kissed other people but it was always consensual. Why did she have to ruin everything??

I screamed and she ran out. I heard a nurse run in but I couldn't stop crying and occasionally screaming. I heard him walk over and mess with the drip attached to my wrist.

In the midst of a scream I became sleepy and soon fell asleep.

To the empty void of an artificial sleep.

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This took me like 5 hours to write because of a certain kitten.

Oh, did I mention that I got a kitten? lol

Okay next part will be Dannnn 

bye lovelies

xx