Rude ~ Phan

Creation From Destruction

Dan's POV

Once I had gotten home from my enlightening journey, my parents didn't even question me because of the huge smile on my face that they haven't seen for years. I, honestly, could get used to this sensation, of being completely happy for no reason at all.

Maybe I should get off of the internet for a little while, I can just take a small break so that I can be happy. Phil will be fine without me. Oh wait, Phil!

I need to check to make sure that he's okay before I completely get off. I grab my phone and get on Twitter, it's my favorite social media. I go to Phil and see that he just posted a tweet:

@AmazingPhil: Hey guys! Sorry for the worry, I'm all good now! Worry time is over *ends all your worry* (:

I can't even describe the rush of even greater happiness that I feel from this tweet. Phil isn't dead nor is he dying and I can just relax. In retrospect, all my obsessive qualities over him and everyone else are a bit absurd. I took it overboard, I should have cherished them and not overused them.

It was too late now, and the cost of my mistake was my happiness. Hopefully I'm making the right decision now. I want to be happy and this might be my only option.

I go to my profile on Twitter and take a deep breath. This is my choice and I need to enforce it. It might be a little hasty but my happiness doesn't wait. I click on settings and find the delete button. I press the button and smile. I delete YouTube, Tumblr, Twitter, and Instagram.

Everything is over, no more rudeness from Phil. No more obsessing over anybody except for myself. I don't really know how I'm going to pass my time now but I'll make it work. I survived as a kid without technology, I'm pretty sure I can figure something with technology.

I have to change my ways a little bit but it's worth it for my happiness. Jesus, I can't stop thinking about my happiness.

Anyways, I'm done with YouTube and Phil. Happiness here I come.

~2 years laterrrrrrrrrr~

I don't think I've ever had a better two years of my life. I used to be super obsessed with these weird people and these weird sites. I also used to be super depressed. I honestly don't know what I was thinking.

Now, I'm happy. I don't have any friends but honestly I don't care. Anyways, nowadays people are talking about this website called YouTube. I'm pretty sure that that's one of the websites I was obsessed with.

I grab my laptop and look it up. It looks pretty interesting, there are a bunch of videos of people just talking to the camera. That looks deceivingly too easy.

I could do that. Maybe I can get some friends through this?

~1 year laterrrRrr~

I turn off the camera and smile. I just finished filming my video for reaching 900,000 subscribers. It's crazy that I've only been at this for a year and I have so many people who love me. I've finally been able to be loved for me and it feels amazing.

I've rejoined all the social medias, I don't really remember why I quit them in the first place. I get a bad vibe from Twitter though, so I try to get on it as little as possible. I think I've fallen in love with Tumblr anyways so it doesn't even matter to me.

I've made a few youtuber friends which is nice. One is Chris, he's hilarious and kinda attractive, don't tell him I said that though. I'm bi but I haven't really told anyone yet, I know that my fans will accept me but I'm just not ready yet. My other friends are Jack and Dean, we don't talk all that much but we've made a few videos together.

I'm proud of myself, I've become pretty famous and I actually have friends. For once, I've actually done something right.

I get on my laptop to edit my new video. I haven't posted in a while so I need to get this up as soon as possible. Once I finished, I uploaded the video to YouTube. People started to like and comment immediately so I shut off my phone and laptop.

I'm 18 now so I had moved out of my parent's house. Now, I live in my own flat in London. I was going to law school but I decided not to after reaching 500,000 subscribers. I have to admit, it is a little lonely having a flat all to yourself.

I wouldn't mind having a roommate, I need help with the rent anyways but I can't find anyone who I want to be around 24/7. So until I find the perfect somebody, I live alone.

It is nice though, no one can complain about my weird sleeping habits or the random crap that I eat. I can be on my laptop all the time and there's no one here to care. I can stay in my pjs all day because I have no one to impress. Hell, I can even walk around naked if I wanted to because there's no one to care.

I can also eat cereal for breakfast, lunch, and dinner and no one will tell me that I have such bad eating habits. No one will get worried about my constant existential crises. So in my opinion, living alone is not that bad at all.

I mean, I would like to have a boyfriend or girlfriend but I haven't found anyone just perfect yet. My friends can fill that place in my heart for right now. 

I don't have a backup plan for if YouTube fails me, so I hope that it won't. But I'm glad that I live alone because there's no one to make noise when I'm filming. I also can decorate how I want and I think the fans appreciate that because they can relate to me more.

I've learned that I have saved many people's lives, just by living. They find my channel and they relate to mostly everything I say and then bam, their depression is cured.  I am proud of myself for being able to do this for other people.

It makes me feel less selfish, I can be happy for being famous and I can also be happy because I made others happy too. It makes me go to bed feeling happy instead of completely worthless. I'm glad that I've managed to do this for all of those people. 

Maybe this can be my impact on the world.

~

yay! i spent like 3 hours writing this, stupid netflix  lol

anyways, how do yall (yes i do say yall) feel about this "new" dan?

okay ill see yall (i can never stop saying it okay) whenever i see yall (help) next

;)