The Love One Has for his Brother

The Pains of Reality

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I sat there still trying to process the information.
"Kaziah.... I don't know what to do"
I didn't respond.
"I'm so sorry....would you ever forgive me?"
I looked at her annoyed.
"Why are apologising to me for?"
She looked up at me surprised.
"You should be apologising to your family because you deceived them and to Gilbert because you took advantage of his vulnerability"
She stood up and started pacing up and down my room.
"What I'm going to tell my husband, my kids?....What am I going to tell Gilbert?"
A strong emotion of anger and jealousy surged through my body.
"Well you should have thought about that before you started having an affair with one of your husbands employees"
She looked hurt but I couldn't care less about the way she felt.
"Kaziah the fact that you're making me seem like I'm the one to blame isn't helping!"
I was extremely pissed off at this point.
"Who else is there to blame! You knew that Gilbert was desperate for a job! You knew you could get something out of him!"
She stopped pacing and starred at me with a pleading look in her eye.
"Please, help me"
I laughed bitterly.
"What do you expect me to do? Lie?"
I starred at her expectantly.
"I want you to tell Gilbert"
"Why can't you tell him yourself? Your the one who's having the baby!"
She sighed.
"I know but I feel as though your closer to him than I am"
I sat down on my bed, breathing deeply.
"What am I suppose to tell him? That a women that he doesn't even love is going to be the mother of his first child?"
She came and sat next to me.
"Kaziah, I want you to tell him about the child then he can choose wether or not we keep it or get an abortion"
I sat there surprised at her solution.
"So that's what you're going to do?"
She nooded.
"Fine but after I tell him I'm going back home to Nebraska"
"What?"
"I can't bear the thought of you holding his child"
"Why?"
I suddenly became shy and insecure.
"Because I love him. I wanted to be his first kiss, I wanted to be the first person he gave himself too, I wanted to be the mother of his first child. I wanted to be his first in everything but...I guess you beat me to it"
I stood up and walked out of the room, ignoring my Aunty's response.
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I found Billy sitting at the kitchen table.
He looked pale and sickly.
"Billy are you alright?"
He shook his head slowly in response.
"Look, if your still angry about the ice cream thin-"
"It's not that"
I sat next to him, curious to why he was acting strange.
"I know about my mom"
I looked down at him confused. How could he possibly know about it?
"Huh?"
"I know that she's going to have a baby and I know that my dad isn't the.... father"
I sat there stunned.
"Billy..How did you kn-"
"I've known for a while now"
My heart instantly sunk at the sudden realisation.
"I knew that Gilbert was doing more than just deliveries when he visited... I've seen the way my mom looks at him whenever he comes around"
Tears started rolling down his cheeks.
"Why didn't you say anything?"
He looked at me, locking his eyes with mine.
"I knew that if I told my dad what I saw, he would leave us behind"
The pain that Gilbert had towards his father for leaving his family was evident in Billy's fear. They were both afraid of being left behind.

Billy looked at me, wiping his tears from his cheeks.
"Kaziah?"
"Hmm?"
"You wouldn't leave me behind....right?"
I sat there silently, drowning myself in guilt.
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