Fixate on the frailty

I am the Broken the Wretched and Divine

Raven POV (A/N: at a certain point, it gets triggering, so if you want to skip Sophie's story, you can.)

Chris decides to re-test my boundaries as they may've changed when I was with Andrew. We start off easy and I'm allowed to tell him when I'm uncomfortable and for the most part, I'm fine. We start off with my hand cuffed to the bed, and then he blindfolds me, and then he gags me. Once he's certain I'm okay with that, we move to his playroom and he ties me to the wooden X on the wall. We go through a few more of them, each one going through three stages: set up, gag, blindfold. And by the end, I can tell that Chris is very pleased with what he sees. We go back into his room and curl up on the bed to talk about it.
"I'm proud if you, Raven," he says to me.
"Thank you, Sir," I reply, smiling.
He chuckles, "You can call me Chris, Rae."
"Okay," I giggle. "What's happening tomorrow?"
"Well, I have to work on the album again, so, you could hang out with Soph if you wanted. I think Kylie wanted to meet you guys, so if it's okay, she might also tag along."
I gape at him, "I get to meet Kylie? The girl that has Ghost tongue-tied when speaking her name? Hell yeah!"
Chris chuckles and kisses my forehead, "Somehow I knew that was going to be your answer."
I roll my eyes and turn over so my back is facing him, "Good night, Chris."
"Good night, Rae." He pulls me towards him and holds me tight, making me feel safe and secure in his arms. I listen as his breathing evens out and I match mine with his and I find myself falling deeper into sleep.

The next day, Ghost drops Kylie off and then he and Chris go to the studio. I'm still in my pyjamas when she comes over, but she hugs me right away and calls me adorable making me blush about seven shades of red.
"Um, so, I'm gonna shower and get dressed, so, make yourself at home, and Sophie should be coming over soon and knowing her, she'll do it while I'm in the shower, so if a hyper, crazy person comes here, don't call the cops," I joke nervously.
Kylie gives me an easy smile, "Okay."
I nod and run upstairs to take a quick shower before throwing on black shorts and a red shirt. I put on my gold dream catcher necklace and some earrings before going downstairs to see that Soph had indeed arrived and she and Kylie seemed to be getting along.
"Hey, Rae, you ready?" Soph asks me.
"Yup, where are we going?"
"Kylie was gonna show us some cool shops in the area, so, I thought that would be fun."
I grin, "Sounds good. Chris left me the keys to his car, so we can take that. Kylie, do you want to drive, or just give me directions?"
"I'd rather drive," she responds, "I'm terrible at giving directions and I'd probably give you the wrong ones, if you don't mind?"
I shake my head, "Not at all, let me just grab some water, you guys want anything?"
"Nah, I got Starbucks on the way over here, so I'm good."
"No, thank you."

The first place Kylie takes us is a little lingerie shop called Hell's Angels and I blush like crazy while Soph and Kylie seem so comfortable and it helps me calm down. Afterwards, we go into a jewellery shop and I see the cutest little necklace. It's on a short silver chain and it's a bat with red beads on either side and when I put it on, it falls just at the base of my throat. It's at a reasonable price and I decide to buy it. Sophie gets a bracelet that has silver metal that has been shaped and etched and it falls gently in her wrist while Kylie doesn't get anything. We decide to get lunch and stop at a little Italian place.
"Who has more clothes? You or Ghost?"
Kylie smirks, "Ghost does, and some of it I steal. He has really good taste and if I see a cute top or whatever, I'll wear it. I just won't touch his underwear, I love him to death and I don't care what he wears, but, still."
We laugh as she shudders and smiles. "So, Kylie, what's your opinion on the other guys?"
"Hm, well, they're all so nice. Ricky is such a sweetheart and Josh is a goofball. Chris tries to keep everyone in line, but most often then not, fails, and Ryan is just comfortable sitting on the sidelines and watching them act like assholes."
"Yeah, I got that impression as well. But, I feel that, when he needs to be, he can be a scary motherfucker," I reply.
She laughs and nods in agreement. Sophie gasps at something on her phone and we look at her for an explanation.
"Sorry, I just found out that my sister is getting married."
I frown, "I thought you two weren't talking."
"Well, we weren't, and then, like, last month, she calls me and says that both her and mom believe me about the abuse and they're so sorry and I really didn't want to forgive them, since they left me with the bastard, but I've been spending time with them and they've been trying to make it up to me, so."
"Why didn't you tell me?" I cry, smacking her shoulder. "You bitch." I turn to Kylie who looks slightly confused, "Sophie, you mind if I tell her?"
"No, go right ahead."
"So, Sophie was abused by her father and her older sister and mother didn't believe her because he always seemed like such a sweet guy and when they got divorced, he seemed so adamant about having his 'precious little girl', so, her mother gave him custody of Sophie because she thought that that was the sweetest thing in the entire world. Sophie would get to see them every now and then, but only if he allowed it. She tried to tell them but they always told her she was doing it to herself, she was making the marks in her body and stuff. Her father got more abusive as she got older. When we met in high school, he was already raping her on a daily basis and beating her to within an inch of her life, needless to say, she spent a lot of time at my house until her father would call the cops and they would bring her home. What kills me, is that her bruises were always very visible, but they never questioned her about the abuse in her home, I don't know what her dad told them, but they never suspected that he was the one putting them there.
"And then, one day in junior year, Sophie came up to me and told me her father had gotten her pregnant and that she didn't know what to do. She came to my house for a few days and we talked it over with my parents as well. Sophie didn't say anything to her dad, but when she started to show, he accused her of sleeping around and betraying him. He beat her that night and she lost the child. She is now unable to bear children as, he found it amusing to get her pregnant and beat the child out of her. When we graduated, my parents helped us escape to the big city where we could get lost together and not worry about him. We stayed together and kept in contact with my parents who Sophie considers her real parents and she's practically my parent's other daughter."
Kylie stares at me with a mix of horror and sadness before reaching over and taking Sophie's hand in hers. "I'm know the last thing you want is sympathy or anything like that, trust me, I know, but, I will say, you contain a strength that you can't see and that is amazing."
"Thank you," Soph whispers. "When Rae and I discovered BDSM, I knew it was what I needed, I needed to be able to trust someone with my entire being in return for no more pain and no more fear, only love and trust in return. And I did, I found Endymion and we've been together ever since."
Kylie smiles gently at her and also takes my hands, "I will always be here for you guys."
"Thank you, Kylie," I mutter shyly.
"Thank you, so much."
"Of course," she responds, "Now, let's go get our mind off of the bad things and go have more fun, okay?"

I drop Kylie and Sophie off at their homes and then go to Chris' apartment. When I walk in, I can hear music playing and I hang up my hoodie and put my bags away in the closet.
"Chris?"
"In here, Rae," he calls from his study.
"Hey, what're you doing?"
"Writing music," he responds as he kisses my cheek. "How was it?"
"It was good, we had a lot of fun."
"Good." He pulls me so I'm sitting in his lap and he places his notebook on the floor, "I just want to love you tonight, Raven. I just want to take my time with you because I don't want to break you. Will you allow me the honour of taking you gently and making you feel safe and secure?"
I shiver as his nose skims my neck and he kisses my jawline as his hands rub gentle circles in my back. "Yes, Chris."
"Thank you, my love." He picks me up and we walk into the bedroom.