A Second Chance To The First Time.

The Before.

(One)

After 4 years of surviving all the equations and various scientific symbols of elements that I had absolutely no idea whatsoever the link was to my life, it was time to graduate from high school.

March 12, 2010. The day every mother and father had been waiting for. Hoping to know whether the hard work they had sacrificed to put their son's or daughter's future in the right direction actually paid off. My name is Damon Rivers and I am one of the sons. Graduation wasn't really such a big thing for me given that I did everything the way I was told to do so. To me, it was just a ceremony, more of a reminder, that I survive life because I follow what they thought was right. I had been living my entire life on the safe side in a way that I did what every parent would want their child to do. I was your typical normal kid who had his whole life ahead of him. All I needed to do was play the right strings.

My two best friends, Jay Larkin and Bas Alchemy, had been with me throughout this whole, what I called suffering. But today is a special day, as today is the day we go to College and enjoy the life of the party. Well, theoretically. The three of us arrived at the football field where the suffering, I mean graduation was celebrated.

"Guys, whatever happens, we stick together until the end okay?" Jay said as his voice cracked.

"Aww, don't be too emotional J. I don't want you crying about how high school was the best time of your life." Bas said as Jay punched him on the shoulder. "We are definitely hanging out with College chicks and getting laid every single night, fuck this school." He added.

"Not with that face of yours. Well, let's get this started then. I can't wait for the after party tonight. Damon, don't be such a wuss tonight and have some fun for god sake alright?" Jay said.

"Parties are not really my thing. You know I have better things to do." I said anxiously. Better things to do? Really?

"Like what? Stalk Lindsey to death? Jeez Damon, get a life outside your cave!" Bas said.

"We haven't talked for quite a while now. But fine, I'll go. Only if you promise not to be so annoying about me and Lindsey though. " I said.

"Whatever, Rivers." Bas said.

We walked towards the rest of the graduates and lined up alphabetically. Honestly, this was the moment I had been afraid of. Afraid not because I might fall while walking to get my diploma, but scared with the fact that Lindsey Rightford was going to be sitting next to me. Lindsey Rightford was our sophomore exchange student who was born with nothing but the most perfect genes in the world. Honestly, I thought that Lindsey was the most beautiful girl I had ever seen. Sadly, I was basically "brother-zoned" which was worse than being "friend-zoned."

The first time I saw her I knew I was definitely in love, well I thought I was, so I tried to hide what I felt about her. Bas and Jay would then tease us of being long lost siblings because we did kinda look alike. Of course, I thought it was horrible given that I was in love with a person teased as a sister to me. Lindsey on the other hand, thought it was sorta cute. It got really bad to the point that whenever we would hang out, she would treat me as if I was her little brother. I would then hide what I truly felt for her and just acted with the moment. Then came a time, where for some reason, I felt really brave. So I told the entire class about what I felt about her and that I would like to take her out on a date someday. We were a laughing stock for a few weeks, slowly damaging our friendship to the extent that we would figure out a way to not talk with each other. Of course, I didn't stop since there was really nothing left for me to lose. She would then try to convince me about how she didn't want to lose our friendship and that she liked me more as a brother rather than a lover. The first time I fell in love, and the first time I got my heart broken. Both at the same time.