A Beautiful Mess

PART 38: Honesty Is The Best Policy

Part XXXVIII: Honesty Is The Best Policy

(Her thoughts)

He told me he loves me. He just did.

"I'm sorry if I've been scared being honest and for you to go thru all of that. You don't deserve to be in a situation like this. I didn't want to admit it when I was still on a relationship. It would not be fair for you," he told me.

I didn't say anything. I felt like there was a lot to say but I didn't know where to start and I am feeling overwhelmed at the same time.

"Raffy, say something. I hate monologues."

"You know that you mean a lot to me. I wouldn't have done all the things I did if you don't. It's just that it wasn't right to take it to another level when someone would be hurt in the process. But here you are... Telling me what I've been wanting to hear," I said. "I don't know which ones I should say first and which ones I shouldn't."

He looked at me. "I didn't plan for anything for you and me. I didn't even want to cater the idea of you and me at first. But you were exactly who and what I wanted. You showed me what I've been missing, what I was supposed to have. You gave them all to me without me asking. I know we both tried to be just friends but we can't."

"Where does it lead us this time?"

"I don't know. I don't have a grand plan for you and me. I just know that nothing is impossible if I'll make things right. I don't really care what the course would be for us to get there. As long as it leads me to you and you to me, I'll be fine."

I smiled. "I love you Ethan. I guess this is really the first time that I admitted this even if everyone seemed to notice before we did."

He was paralyzed.

"What?" I asked him.

"Nothing. I just didn't know it will still struck me if I hear it from you," he smiled.

She laughed. "That was heavy."

He took my hand and kissed it. "I'm just glad you came in late and took a seat beside me that day. Now you complete and fulfill everything I need."