The real broken face of night watcher

Chapter 4:

Mikey's POV
The next day I woke up at Donnie's lab, well I'm not completely sure that today is the day after the accident it sounds like I've been sleeping for so long.
I'm not completely okay but at least I can sit and talk. Suddenly I heard a sound of argument in the lair
-"He mustn't go to that work again " it sound like Raph angry like always.

-"But he loves that job besides we need money do you understand that? We can't always be under Casey and April's helps" And of course this is Don.

-"He can't ,he mustn't I won't allow him " Raph barked angrily I can completely imagine him now standing in front Don guarding his hand trying to force him to listen.

-"you're not in a place to allow or to not allow something " Don answered calmly oh no this just with make Raph angrier.

-"Ahhh don't start again I'm sick of your rulling did you even think what could've happen if the next time we won't take him in time what if someone see him ?!"
I can't handle anymore I use all my powers to get outa bed and started to walk towards the door tremblingly, when I came outa of lab no one noticed they're too deep in to their domestic fight

-"Both of you shut up!!" I yelled loud enough to catch their attention, both of them stared at me with a shock gaze.

- "you can't go to that job again" Raph said strictly crossing his arms.

-"And who are you to tell me what to do or not to do ?" I know this end up bad but I can't agree with him
- "cause I'm your older brother " frowned greeting his teeth

- " so what?you're not my commonder! Not enough power besides I love my job" I shrugged why leaning next to wall.

-" you can get hurt"

- "no I won't, I'm not a child" augh my gead hurts I'm not completely healed to use this much energy.

- "don't you understand you could have been dead!!"

-"well I'm not" I said with a smile and shrugged to annoy him.

- " Guys stop it" Don said trying to break us but not this time, this time i won't loose.

-"shut it Don" we both yelled at him , then Raph started again harsher this time

-"your job is stupid" his voice is getting deeper but I can't stand this he can't insult everything he wants I'm getting mad he's going too far
-"nobody ask your idea Raph, plus at least I'm doing something not just sleeping all day and doing NOTHING! Yes me the useless one! I's doing something useful!"

Don open his mouth to talk again-" Raph why do you disagree with everything you're always in the opposite line ,can't you not being selfish just for one time he's going to continue his job and don't you dare to stop him that's my last word hot-head "

Raph is shouting from the inside his eyes are burning -"But ..." He started but Don cut him
-"I said no buts Raph without Leo I'm in charge here and I'm sure Splinter gave me this position for a reason ."

-" Oh really ? And what is that special reason "

-" It is because that I work with logic, I have a brain and my head is not made of iron or sponge and I'm wiser and older than you, I think and then do things but you do and after that you think about it And I'm calm like Leo and won't blow up by second like volcano "

-" nerdy "
-"Hot head "
-" short tempered "
-" bookworm"
-" useless "
-"Heartless"I could see Raph's hand is going through his Sai and it would ends up to no good...

-" both of you shut it for a minute and take breath you're shouting for nearly half hour without hesitation just sit for a second " I said and try to break them but I'm not strong enough now
-" ya know what ?! I'm outa here nobody needs me anyway"

-" Don't you dare" Don said but he's gone and there were us staring and the lair's open door.

-"try me..." I heard Raph voice from the far like and silent echo.

Raph POV
I ran to the roof and shout as loud as I could I kicked everything around me I can't go on anymore I kneeled and punch the roof so hard that made my fingers bleed they hate me they call me heartless they think I don't care about'em and I'm being selfish.... why I'm always the selfish one....what about Leo?! They never say why he left?!

They weren't there, I WAS , they didn't saw the accident I DID. I saw how the truck came over and crush him and I couldn't do anything. Why it wasn't me? Why I wasn't there to alarm him what would happen if next time Nightwatcher won't come in time
-"Leo I hate ya!! it's your fault....you lil...!" if he was here Mikey wouldn't have to has this job he is my lil bro I saw him broken and miserable ,I punched again and again good that no one lives under this roof.

I can feel the hot tears in my eyes like buring lavas come down my eyes burning me from both inside and outside; I'm not gonna stop'em so I started to cry I'm broken, I shouted with all my might with my whole heart I can control it... I can't hold it...
-"I want my life back . I want Mikey to heal ,I want those good days back, I want my family back, I want'em to trust me to love me... I'm tired of being and outcast, I can't see us tear apart, I want my young hood back, those laughing sounds back" my eyes are burning hah what am I talking to? GOD? if he wanted to help he never let these happen there's no god; world is crueler than you think, they say it's destiny or they say you make it your own, but this isn't something in our power we aren't controlling this! Who ever is it that is controlling us this isn't fair! I want to get rid of this chains they are rotten still as hard as steel! I want to make my life myself! With my family! Let us go! This sky is foggy the water is black our boat is rotten and full of cracks we can't sail... we're drowning down to the darkness... we getting far from this clear surface... I can't feel the waves of this ocean...we're drowning to the hell...and no one can fight it...

-"I... I want him back , I want my brother back" I'm shaking I can't say this...or should I?... what is this feeling? Misery? Emptiness? I'll drown... I'm heading down...i need to be saved I can't swim outa this...Needing for sympathy or loneliness?... I don't know
-" I ...I. ...want my ..brother BACK" i rested my head on my bloody fists on the roof floor and closed my burning eyes....I feel lost ....this whirlpool is dragging me...
-"I want Leo back" I whispered this last sentence and then I punched again and again and again till I didn't have any energy soon I fell sleep at the roof

(End of flashback)

A/N please comment
So guys what do ya think I tried my best ? I actualy have finished this but I'm rewriting to make it better so I'll update everyday,so pls read and tell me your idea I love writing about Raph it's like writing about me I'm short tempered and so emotional I can understand him so well any way I like to know your idea
Thanks for reading ❤️🙏