The real broken face of night watcher

Chapter 10

Mikey's POV
I'm worry , I wanna go talk to Splinter ask him why is he always so relax and easy I'm angry I want to fight with him I want my  ANSWERS . But I'm just angry I can't disrespect him I just.. Just need someone to talk . I'm standing in front of his door , I nocked the door " come in " a very calm voice answered " um sensei can we .. Um have small talk if you have time" I asked and wish he won't reject me , " of course what's bothering you ?" Sometimes his calmness is on my nerve how can he be so calm at every situation. " well father I have some questions. I wanna know how are you so calm when our family members are destroy each other ? How can you not to have nervous, angry , sad or any other of these negative feelings? " my heart is beating fast I really afraid of his reaction he raised  his eyebrow " well cause I'm meditating I free myself and think free" I'm getting angry again I can't be polite but at least try to don't yell " can't you see them?!! They HATE  each other those two were nearest and now they're becoming ENEMIES " my voice is shaking " why you don't do anything you think relaxing andTHINKING is gonna make everything better? Really answer me did you ever think what could happen if you just leave us for 5 months and not be here to order them around they will leave forever and never come back what if we won't find Raph soon enough?" I'm shaking I was standing but now I'm at the floor trying my best to not cry . He kneeled , I think I went outa line he hugged me and put my head on his chest " you think it's easy for me to pretend to be strong to leave them to solve their problems you're 21 I'm getting old , come let's show you something " he stands and went through his closet and pick an old album he opened it and showed me the pictures " see these are you and the other three look at that other picture it's them sleeping near the wall they fight at morning at evening and then they sleep in each other  embrace and Raph put his blanket over Leo and then they sleep together whole night " his paws was shaking he was struggling with himself " you think I'm not worry , you think it's easy to sit here and play role of meditating and then listen to their yelling and fighting and then remember their loughs their good moments . I can't come and control them those two have a most pride in the world you're not teenagers anymore I cant order you around that much" he's gonna cry soon well I didn't think he break lime this " it's all my fault that they break all my fault...." He is holding my hand " I'll do anything , anything to bring them back together, Michelangelo I'm tired I'm scared what will happen to them they were like one soul and two body but I break them , I hurt them cause of some stupid rules look at these pictures their faces how happy they were how.. you should keep them together" I looked at  him" I'll try "he hold my hands tighter"/ let me tell you a story once upon a time was a river and small rock most likely to be a stone they lived in a jungle everywhere that river goes would took the stone too but once there was a huge amount of rain the rain make the river bigger river wanted more to see more , river became a flood and then crush the rock in its way the rock get lost broke and forgotten but river flowed till in the end it come to a sea it come through the sea and became one of a million unimportant pieces of water of the sea there was so many rocks that the waves breaks or not ,but none became hits old friend it never became that unique river of jungle now it was just a piece of water it become alone and always heard the sound of stone that was moving in its water and the stone break to parts and always remembered that beautiful  voice of river . Don't let this flood that I made destroy them I want them to be one soul again to ... "He  didn't talk anymore he cried slowly I decided not to leave him
Leo's POV
I heard everything it was a long time that I didn't saw him cry I will find Raph and promise to not let him break " Leo , Leo I found the Raph's phone signal " Don shouted from the hall

A/n
Hey guys I don't know why but I cried at this chapter and sorry if it wasn't god but for writing the next I needed to write this one😞😔