The real broken face of night watcher

Chapter 5: The black whirlpool

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(Back to present)
Raph's POV
Remembering those days burn me from inside those memories and being cold blooded doesn't work anymore for my burning mind and heart,
how much fight we got into and we got apart and far from each other, our boat was still sailing but without any certain destination or wasn't even moving forward we were just sailing around a whirlpool while going down a down as the circles were becoming smaller like and darker just like our hearts yet we weren't drowned yet; all these times turning around these circles over and over even tho they were getting smaller but things seemed to be repeating some scenes was repeating again and again just in different times nothing was changing...I wonder when are we going to get to the end of this darkness... what's waiting for us at the that tinny and dark part of this whirlpool...will we ever see the waves on the surface again?..
All these time I felt like my heart was burnt everyday and then refreshed and burned over and over again yet still seemed that every time it refreshed it had lost something and became emptier with me waiting for him to come back...it almost felt like my heart was loosing all of its flesh and would be over soon then I would had no feelings nothing more than a box of rust yet it hurt so bad... Ya are too late fearless... just too late...
For two years lair had became to two different place one a big tombstone that is deep into its misery and silence and another place was like a hell , a hell of a mad ocean with angry waves drowning all the ships that were sailing an ocean that doesn't even give mercy where the sharks became a prey themselves, a sky full of lightning, an earth with dried rivers and burnt jungles the smell of the dust and hidden ashes that's come from a broken family that fight everyday shout at each other and curse each other.
That day on the roof I promised myself that if Leo comes home soon enough I will be a better brother I'll fight less be kind to my family, never let'em to leave me & show them how much I care for them I waited and waited and he didn't came back and my heart finally turned to that box of rust; I lost my hope and got harder every day I got drunk many times I smoked and.....now where am I standing ?
Leo is back and we must have a normal life but how?! Even imagining to return to the old days is impossible, I need my answer...he left us at age of 19 and soon we're gonna be 22 I want to talk to them to break these walls but I can't I don't know how, my pride doesn't allow me to do it, deep inside it feels like I'm lost and I'm running looking for something but it's invisible and I can't find it....find that thing whatever that could warm me up.... but I guess it's too late.

-"Raph!! " I heard someone shouting...Don? -"Raph!!"he shouts again louder this time.

-"Wat? Whatcha want? Why are ya yelling? You're making me deaf"

-" maybe you should answer your question yourself , I call you four times and you and answering at fifth time anyway it's time for patrol "
I groaned rolling my eyes then get up taking my sai and we left the lair.

Leo 's POV
This is our first patrol after so long we mustn't make a mistake I must be good leader we must reunite again -"ok guys we know it's been so long but just forget everything and do as always we .."

-" Ahhh OK we know! don't lecture us we are not amateurs " Raph said with a groan I just kept calm I don't want to fight.

-" I didn't lecture just ..." I wanted to convince him but he shut me off with a death glare; -"fine just be careful let's keep moving"
We started jumping from the roofs, city seems so quiet but suddenly I feel something I looked and saw a bunch of foots in the alley, this is our chance to start over just we mustn't be impulsive.

-" Hey guys this way these foots.." again Raph shut me, why can't he be not aggressive just once?.
-" so let's go and kick their butt" there we go again as impatient as always.
- " No we need plan be patient" I said trying to make a plan quickly before Raph make things worse.
-" really you want me to be patient after all these ...." He rose his eyebrow like asking for something with a obvious answer.

-"YES we must be patient " I try to keep calm.... keep calm... keep calm!
-"I'm not listening anymore " by that he jumped and attack the foot so we had no choice screw whatever plan I had we must go.

-"so it look we have to go too" I said and followed Raph.

We jumped dawn we attack I take my katanas and stab some foot as I was looking at Raph that was fighting angrily and wildly not caring if he make too much damage, I punched another one when we were nearly done I saw Raph that was going to put his Sai in one of the foot's neck with his eyes burning in anger, we all ran towards him trying to stop him Donnie and me took his hand while Mikey was taking the foot somewhere else away from Raph's reach.

" Raph stop it it's done, we're done and they're gone now we must go" I said calmly yet a bit strict to get him back to his sanity. He was breathing heavily then turned his gaze at me with his angry eyes, I just waited for him to calm down, after some second he came back to normal.
-" we must go now " I said calmer than before.

-" No! We're not completely done yet!" he shook his head stubbornly disagreeing like always, well I can't say I wasn't predicting this.
-" The cops can handle the rest let's move before they come"

-" No they can't cops are too slow "
-" Raph you're not OK we should go we all need to rest"

-" I'm Fine and not gonna let'em run"
-" why don't you let your dear Nighwatcher handle them " I rolled my eyes with a smirk knowing he doesn't have an answer.

-" cause .."
- "CAUSE WHAT Raph ? you don't have a reason so stop it and move on that's an order"

-"Fine, whatever fearless" he shrugged and start heading back
So we head back to the lair I can feel that this was just a start of huge problem that is coming specially with Raph, a tornado is roaring inside him coming this way.

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