The real broken face of night watcher

Chapter 13

Splinter's POV
I was in my room praying thinking writing once in a while . How can they call me wise , strong ? How can they look up to me ? How ... How can they call me their father ? For the second time of my life I don't know what to do.
'See Yushi ? Do you see that your huge flood is breaking this love dame ? How you're drowning them with your huge flood of pride and unforgettable mistakes ? How did you break the strong heart of the stone how you stole river innocent and the calmness of the river and take the warmth and laughter of then sun and draw a sad face for the moon you destroy everything ' It's been days that I'm mumbling these to myself if something bad had happened, if he got hurt I never forgive myself? Seriously what have I been thinking that day ? Just for once I want to hear the stone footsteps in the water once to feel the warmth and see the moon shining .
I can here their footsteps they're back I hope there's good news.
Leo 's POV
How should I tell him about what we found about Raph's SAI ? I heard his footsteps that was coming out of his room . He came out he shakes a little his illness getting worse those strict and hard eyes become soft Don said in som few percentage he can get a cancer or at a better place get a Parkinson's disease seriously?!!! What did we do WRONG we save this city and those coward humans for too many times and now we get this for appreciating??! we.... " welcome back my sons did you find anything? Leonardo ?" He looked at me with eyes that was screaming why should it be me why I have to be the one to answer questions always?!! I bowed " Hi... Um how are you?.. We had found somethings ....and there are...see try to be calm ..we" oh it's just on word C'MON " we found Raph's phone weapons and a piece of Leo's bandana in an alley " Donnie finish it before I could say anything " I see I'm sure he's alright he's a perfect ninja .. I..I'm in my room if you need me please come in." Then he vanished as soon as he could , once he played his role so perfect but now you can see his broken heart his teary eye and the pain that is destroying us is yelling inside of him . And in this days of my life I really don't know who is the real guilty one .
Don 's POV
Two day has passed for the first time of whole my life I have no clue I can't think anymore cause I don't want to think about that what if he had gotten into a bad fight what if he got very drunk or he is injured so bad that he can't come back what if Mikey's words come true and he never come back ?!! Many years ago that Leo got into that fight with shredder and injured terribly that he couldn't move we knew that he was with us we could protect him heal him but now ?!! I always thought that Raph is the biggest pessimism ever but when even Mikey won't tell jokes or laugh alone you except me to be optimism ? Now that I think how harsh Raph described our world , our home and most important family I think he was right there's no GOD , HEAVEN or HELL they are our worlds the real hell is this place a real forgotten place deep into its misery a place for corpse bodies that are breath but don't actually live you think I'm going too far so let me explain : when you hear Mikey cry himself to sleep , when your father that symbol for the strength and wisdom tear apart and Leo is never home most of time out in who knows where and the time that he's at home he train at dojo and do some punches that echoes in the lair . Yeah  this the real hell .
Raph's POV
It's been three days since he came while was handing my Sai I have no energy I'm hungry but I mustn't show it . My body my jaws heart he's really strong there blood that has been dried in my lips or under my nose even if he hit me nearly to die I won't let him recognize me. * Footsteps sounds* he came in he's so furious something has happened he's not like everyday he came and punch me as hard as he can" WHERE IS MY BROTHER!" He punched really hard " woo boy control yourself didn't your father tell ya to say hello in the first place?" With this he got madder " my father do even know him do you know how he is I have to find him before it's too late" I twitched for a "second before it's too late" what did he meant what's wrong with them but they don't care about me I'm sure they are okay without  their hot head brother " what's that mean ?" He kicked me again soon I'll have a broken body  " it's non of your business we need Raph they need Raph NOW" I'm getting worried but why they should need me " Why should I believe  ya maybe you're playing a role to cheat ,to betray him again ..." What am I saying he's gonna kill me ..

A/n
Hey guys sorry for being late the good news is that 2 chapter and then you will get ride of it see ya