Deceived

Fake Feelings

Frederick had been all over me. He couldn't accept the fact that I didn't like him as more than a friend. I pity him and it was really sad that he had been rejected by girls all the time. I was thinking about what to do with the situation and how to help him. I was clueless. I didn't know how to help him. Frederick sent me texts like, 

"I really like you El" 

"Can't you just give me a chance to be with you?" 

"Please?" 

I was feeling guitly. Frederick's texts made me feel sad. He was desperate. Plus, he told me that he never had a girlfriend. Not even once. How sad. He kept on sending texts and it was like he didn't wanted to give up. 

I gave in eventually. I told him that I had a crush on him too. I lied. I didn't like him. I like Bryan. He was happy to hear that I like him, "Really?" 

I replied with a one word answer, "Yeah". I didn't like him at all. It was sad seeing him being like that. I guess he really did liked me. But too bad, I didn't like him back. Frederick asked me a question that I dreaded the most. 

"Will you be my girlfriend?"

I was literally shocked. He asked me to be his girlfriend? That was fast. I just told him that I like him, then he asked me about being his girlfriend? I made the worst decision of my life. I said, 

"YES" 

I never wanted to be his girlfriend. I don't like him. Never. I like Bryan. I made a stupid mistake. I agreed to be his girlfriend because I felt sorry for him. He never had a girlfriend before and every girl that he liked, rejected him so I thought, "It's just High School, why not?" 

But I was wrong. Things got worst. I suffered because of my own stupid decision. I regret. After Frederick and I became a couple, almost everyone at school knew about it. I told him to keep it as a secret but he told everyone about it. I was his first girlfriend.

Vanessa didn't know about it at first. I told Arabella and Michelle about it. 

"Helloooo" I greeted them as I took my sit at my usual desk in school. They greeted me back. 

I continued, "I have something to tell" 

"What?" Arabella said excitedly. Michelle focused at me. They were waiting for me to say something.

"I have a boyfriend" I said. 

"Whoa. WHAT? WHO? WHEN?" 

"Frederick" I said flatly. 

"WHAT?!" They were shocked. I was shocked by myself too. Why did I even agreed to be Frederick's girlfriend?

"How about Bryan?" Michelle asked. 

"What about Bryan?" I replied. 

"I thought you like him?" 

"What? No. I don't like him. Never." I chuckled. "I don't like him"? I lied. I do like him. I like Bryan. A lot. 

"So, what do you like about Frederick?" Arabella asked me. 

"His personality." I lied again. I didn't like him at all. Not even his personality. 

"Oh" Michelle said. She was not convinced with my answer. Well yeah. Arabella and Michelle is my bestfriends. They know when I'm lying and when I'm telling the truth. They know me well. They know that I like Bryan. 

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I was on the phone again with Bryan. Bryan knew about me and Frederick. Frederick is his friend. 

"So, you're Frederick's girlfriend now huh?" He asked. 

"Yeah."  I wasn't happy being his girlfriend. 

"Which means, we can't hang out anymore" He said.

"Yeah" I said flatly. I'm someone else's girlfriend now. Which means I can't hang out with Bryan anymore. I was devastated. I really like going out with him.

"Awww. Don't worry. You can hang out with Frederick, your boyfriend" He tried to cheer me up.

"Yeah. Okay" I wish I could tell him that I don't like Frederick. That I don't want to be his girlfriend, and I don't want to hang out with him. I wish I could tell Bryan that I like him. But it was hard. Things was really complicated.