Deceived

June

June

Bryan and I started talking again after my break up with Frederick. We text and call with each other like we used to do. Bryan asked me to hang out with him on the weekend. I said "Okay. Yeah sure". So I went out with him. 

June 16, 2013 

Who knew that particular date changed my life forever? Changed the way how I look at things, especially guys and now, I just don't want to think about that day anymore because it doesn't mean anything. It was just a stupid mistake. 

Like some quote said, 

Follow your heart

Well guess what? I did follow my heart but, I should've think it through deeply before doing something that's... bad. 

"El?" 

"What?" I replied. Focusing at the plain white walls. It was awkward sitting at the staircases at the mall and I had this weird feeling that something might happened in just a few seconds. Something known as, Instinct. 

"Close your eyes". He said. 

"What? Why should I?" I was curious. I couldn't read his mind. 

"Just close your eyes". He insisted. 

"What are you doing?" I stared into his eyes and those long eyelashes and thick eyebrows. 

"Nothin really. Just close your eyes". He said again. 

"No." 

"Why?" 

"Because you might do something to me". I said. 

"I'm not going to do anything to you". He said with his arms around me. How strange. He was acting strange in the beginning of the day and I didn't know what to expect that moment. His plan didn't work out but so I thought. It happened right when we were sitting inside the movie theater, and we were watching "The Hangover Part 3" 

There were a few people inside the movie theater and everyone was sitting infront while Bryan and I sat at the last row, which was way back. The movie was great but I thought that was it. Watch the movie and eat popcorns, but I didn't expect it to happen. Like why? 

Bryan and I sat there, watching the movie. His arms around me and I sat close next to him. Closer that ever. The beginning of the movie, nothing happened. Just laughs and giggles but at the near end of the movie, something shocked me and I couldn't even think for a second. 

As the movie about to end, I felt his lips on mine and that we were kissing. WE WERE KISSING! OMG! I was stunned and couldn't move and all I could thought of was, "Why are we kissing?". I guess I should've seen it coming when he was leaning closer to me and that he was actually aiming for my lips. 

We stopped for awile and I was still quite shocked with his move. He actually kissed me. In just matter of seconds I kissed him back. Yup. I did. I kissed him back. I was craving for more and the next thing I knew, we were french kissing and playing with each other's tongue. It was just a short makeout but I felt something that I never felt before. The feeling that came along with it and that by far for me, BEST KISS EVER. Unlike my first boyfriend, I didn't like it that much. It was more of digusted feeling than enjoyment. 

Maybe it was because Bryan's a good kisser or something like that and it was definitely the best kiss ever for me. 

The movie ended and we stopped our makeout session and headed out of the theater. It was awkward and Bryan and I didn't say much. We just walked out the cinema and we actually held hands. Weird. I was still thinking about the kiss that we had and I had the feeling that I wanted to kiss him again. Maybe he wanted to kiss me again.