Deceived

July

July 7, 2013

I went out with Bryan again and I was really excited about seeing him again, after our last hangout which was like two weeks ago. I was overly attached to him and I was still thinking about the makeout that had happened the last time. I still wanted to do those "things" with him and I know that I shouldn't be doing any of those "things" but I was unable to control myself towards him. 

It was the same thing again. We went out and watched movies together at the same "hang out" spot. I don't remember the movie that we watched on that particular date and I didn't even concentrate on the movie that we were supposed to watch. We were so "busy" with each other and not to mention we wasted our money on movie tickets instead of watching it. 

We sat at the same place, the last row which was way back and it was further from the huge movie screen. We were the only ones sitting behind and everyone was sitting in front of us, as always. He sat next to me, with his arms around me and I sat closer to him. 

Even before the movie started, we were already kissing and oh boy, I was a little bit carried away by the kiss and all I could think of was his lips and him. It was a long passionate kiss and a few minutes later we were in second base. He started to slowly unclip my bra and put his hands inside my shirt, rubbing my boobs. We continued making out and I let him touch my chest and I know I shouldn't let him but I was too carried away with it. 

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July 14, 2013

We went out together again, to the movies like the usual just to continue our makeout session but it was different this time, way different and that I was tired of being used. I didn't realized it at first but now, I do. We don't realize what we did until it was over

I was waiting outside the theatre with him, as we waited for our turn to get into the cinema. It was crowded and everyone was going to watch the same movie. I'm not the type of person who likes being in a crowded place but with him there, I actually don't mind. As long as he was there, with me. I actually sounded pathetic. "As long as he was there, with me?" Say whut now? 

Anyway, where was I? Oh yes, the cinema. As we waited outside, Bryan kept on glancing at his phone every one minute. I wasn't curious at all but then after awhile I couldn't stand it so I asked him. 

"Who are you texting with?" I asked glancing over his phone. 

"Someone", He stared at his phone as he texts. 

"Who?" I asked again. 

"This girl", 

Well... That part actually shocked me. Literally. I didn't know what to expect and I actually felt sad, curious and jealous at the same time. I was annoyed by him, texting with that "girl' on that day. He didn't paid any attention to what I was saying so I kept quiet the whole time. He realized it but he didn't cared enough to tell me what was happening or why was he acting so weird on that day. 

Then we entered the theatre and of course, we did the exact same thing. Makeout bla bla bla and watch the movie and makeout again. Bla bla bla. After the movie ended, we went to a food court and we had lunch. I didn't eat anything on that day because I was in a bad mood and I felt as if something wrong will happen in any seconds. 

He ate the food, looking so innocent and naive. I just stared at my phone, which was really awkward because I wasn't even on anything. Not on Facebook, Twitter or Whatsapp. I tried to stop thinking about the girl that he was texting with but then, I was afraid to ask him about it. 

"What?" He asked as he looked at me. He was chewing his food. 

"What? Nothing", I shooked my head and continued staring at my phone. 

"You're acting really weird today", He said. 

"No I'm not. You're the one acting weird", I replied. 

"No", He denied. 

"Who you're texting with?", I tried not to ask him about it but I couldn't. I was too curious. 

"This girl. I met her from facebook and we chat so yeah... and then she gave me her phone number so we text with each other", He replied. I kept silent for a moment, trying to think deeply about the whole situation. "Is it possible that he might like this girl?" I thought. But why do I care? I don't like him... right? 

"So, you like her huh?" I tried to smile but deep inside, I was hurting. 

"No, she likes me. Not me like her. There's a difference ya know", He said while holding his phone, waiting for the girl to text him. 

"Okay, whatever'", I looked away. I tried not to be so obvious about my feelings for him. I was on the verge of tears. 

"Why?", He asked. Oh shit! He knows that I'm hurting... he knows that I like him. 

"Nothing. I'm just asking", I was in denial. I could have just told him about my feelings directly on that day but I was afraid of rejection. 

"Oh, we should cancel our hang out next sunday", He said. I was a little bit surprised but I knew what to expect. He wanted to go out with the girl. 

"Huh?", I gave him a blur face. I pretended as if I didn't know what he meant. 

"I..uh..I'm going out with her. Next sunday", He replied as he was texting. 

"Oh, okay", I pretended that I was fine with it. 

"Don't worry, we can hang out the next week after that", He smiled. I wasn't thinking about the next hangout. I was thinking about what if, he kiss the girl? What if he likes her? What if he leaves me? There were many things on my mind and mostly the negative ones. 

I gave him a quick smile. Although I was actually feeling sad. There was nothing I could do and I'm not in charge of his feelings or other people's feelings. It was his choice and who am I to prevent him for liking someone else when I didn't even tell him about my feelings towards him? I should've but did not. 

I went home and cried myself to sleep. Well, I wasn't actually crying. I was holding back my tears because I didn't want to be sad over some silly things. But why am I so afraid of losing him, when he's not  even mine? 

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A/N 

Hello readers! I'm really really really sorry for not updating this story for so long. I was busy with school and all so I didn't had the time to continue writing my story. I apologize for that. Anyway, thank you for reading!! :) I didn't expect that I will get that many reads. Thank you so much xoxo. 

El