Deceived

Weekdays

Weekdays. We talked every weekdays. It was fun and exciting to talk with him. I never seemed to get bored of him. We text and call everyday. Every time after school, Bryan would sent me a text. Pretty much I'm always with my phone. My mom couldn't stop nagging about how much I spent more time on my phone and that I should be studying instead of texting and calling all the time.

I ignored my mom. I couldn't help it. I needed my phone. It was like I couldn't live without my phone. Well used to. When my phone was the most important thing.

Texting and calling with him was like my everyday routine. I could talk with him on the phone for hours and hours. I even sacrificed everything just to talk to him. Not sacrificed, more like I ditched my homework just to talk to him. I never finished my homework when he was around.

The worst thing I ever done, it was exam week and I supposed to be studying but I didn't studied because I was so attached to him and I felt like I needed to talk with him every single day. Day and night.

Weekdays was clearly not the worst. Weekends was the worst. I usually spent my weekend doing things that I like such as reading but I no longer did that. I had to talk to him because we always text. Everyday I became closer and closer with him.

Talking with him everyday was great but my grades were getting worst. I failed almost everything. I didn't study and I couldn't focus that much at school because I was always thinking about him. I just stared at the whiteboard that were written with every possible notes but I didn't copied any of those notes. 

Everytime I wanted to study or finish my homework, I would get distracted by him and I ended up talking with him on the phone for hours and hours. I didn't cared about anything. I didn't cared about homework, exams, studies or getting good grades. He was on my top list, a priority. But I came across this quote that I found somewhere on the internet, or was it from a movie. The quote, "Never make someone your priority if you continue to be their option". 

What did I get from all of this? Nothing really. Well actually there is..

Bad grades...

Boy Trouble...

Lack of sleep..

24 hours of communication...

Unfinish homework...

Less concentration in class...

More bad grades...

More boy trouble...

Oh and did I mention, Bad Grades?

I couldn't overcome the problems that I had. I lost control of my life and the worst part of all, I was failing. I was failing in school and I did nothing because I wasted my time, with Bryan. Texting and on the phone with him... 

That was like ten months ago. Now, October 4, 2013. I never get any texts or calls from him anymore. I could still see him on twitter and Facebook but I never had the courage to talk to him because I was afraid. Afraid of being ignored. Afraid of being rejected. I'm starting to think that he doesn't even know me at all. He act like he doesn't know me and all the things that we did together. How cruel human can be?

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Dear B, I miss talking to you. I miss you. Aaahhh. I hate saying that I miss you. Asdfghjkl

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