The Little Things ✔️

All tied up

I walk through the dark corridors of back stage. It was the final evening of our concert and I wanted it go well. For me for Mat. I come across two tall figures talking. One of them is leaning against a speaker and the other is stood up straight with his arms folded. They look like they are up to something so I try to walk past them as quickly as I can with my head down. But as I walk past them one of them grabs my arm. I scream but I feel something get shoved in my mouth. It makes my mouth dry and my scream is muffled by the rag. I feel my hands being tied up around my back. I try kicking out but the guy holds me down. I'm so scared. I've never felt as helpless as I do now. Vulnerable even. I'm now lying on the cold hard ground with my hands around my back and rag in my mouth. I scream again but nothing comes out. I feel the guys lips connect with my neck and he runs his hands down to my hips. At that moment I realise what's going on. I try kicking out but the other guy is sitting on my ankles. I'm helpless. I give up. A few seconds later I hear running footsteps and the weight on my ankles is gone. Somebody's here thank god. The guys lips have moved from my neck to my arms but not for much longer. I hear the person grunt and he leaves my body. I hear skin collide and fists touch. I look up to see the guy and Mat having a full out fight. I take my chance and take the rag out of my mouth and move away from the action. I'm still all tied up but at least I'm on my feet. Suddenly I hear a bang. A body fall to the floor. Then I feel hands around me pulling me towards the figure. The scent is familiar. It's Mat. I breath a sigh of relief that I'm finally in my lovers arms. His hands move to my back and he carefully with shaking hands undos the knot holding the rope to my hands. It drops to the floor with a silent thud. I wrap my sore wrists around Mat who moves closer to my shaking frame. I notice as I press my head against his chest that his heart beat is very quick. I place my hand over his heart and look up at the blue tearful eyes of Mat. A tear rolls down his cheek but I catch it and wipe it away. I lean up and kiss him on his quivering lips. This seems to calm him down a little. He attempts to smile at me but I can tell it's fake. He's scared he was scared. I wrap my arms around him and pull him against my body heat.
"It's ok Mat I'm here now." I say into his T shirt. His heart beat slows down ever so slightly.
"Shhhhh." I whisper trying to calm him down. I look back up at him to see more tears making their way down his face. I look into his eyes and am shown with fright, fear and hurt. Our foreheads come into contact and he's cold. Our lips reconnect once again but stay there for a little longer.
"I'm so sorry Al." He says. It's dark. All around us is black but Mat is the light that makes me see. But it's fading, and fast.
"Why? Why you sorry Mat you've done nothing wrong." I say kissing him again. Another tear rolls down his face. I take his hand and lead him into the light of the stage. We are now stood looking out to an empty arena. I can see my light more clearly standing by my side. I'm all tied up in this love for this guy I could never let him go. Never. He could never get rid of me. His eyes shift to mine and holds me there for a second. I come into his arms again and he lets me in.
"I was so scared." He says nuzzling his head into my neck.
"So was I. But I'm here now and I'm never leaving." I say burying my head into his chest. His heart beat has slowed right down and he gives me a real true smile. One of the songs from our playlist starts playing throughout the hall. Mat grabs me by the hand and starts spinning me around. Twirls and spins. I find myself dancing with Mat. Laughing and moving along to the music. We find ourselves singing the lyrics as loud as our voices will let us. We sing dance for minutes. Then the music cuts off. Mat is laughing smile on his face and life in his eyes and most importantly my light is shining brighter than ever. He's laughing so hard that it makes me feel completely different to how I did a few moments ago. He mutters something under his breath that in quick enough to hear and it makes my insides freeze and turn to jelly. As he pulls me into a hug.
"God I love you so much I'm looking forward to marrying you so much." The end of muffled by his T shirt but still clear enough to make me feel light headed. My light was shining brighter than ever and my eyes were more full of life than ever. I could see. But I was still tied up. Up in love. But that's ok. Love ties you up in so many knots that it's impossible to undo. If those knots become undone then it feels like it was always possible but you never realised. So if Mat was saying that he wanted to make the unbreakable knot then my life would become impossible to leave behind. Even the knots previously done up could never be undone. I'm tied up for live to this guy. And always will be no matte what.