The Little Things ✔️

Stay

The cold air swirls around my cold core. In the same place I was 5 hours ago. I'm stiff from not moving but heart broken at how I treated Mat. I can't move at the thought of seeing Mats hurt face again. I really didn't know how this world affect our relationship. I didn't even know if we still were in one. I cry silently into my scarf that Mat bought for me. I felt alone. Without Mat sat beside me I felt alone. Done with life. Will he take me back? Probably not. I bet he's packing right now! All these thoughts surround my head drowning me in negativity. I can hear footsteps make their way over the bridge but I don't bother looking up. I know it's not Mat so why try to act like I'm ok. As the figure gets closer I feel more and more tense. Just wishing it was him. Hoping he would cuddle me and tell me he was sorry. But instead the hand that grabs me shoulder is of a Middle Aged lady. She smiles at me her wrinkles shows. She lowers herself down to sit next to me and looks all over me face.
"What's a beautiful young lady like you doing out here in the winter cold?" She says in a posh British accent. I smile back at her. You can't help but feel warm and fuzzy when someone says something like that. My eyes find the floor and I don't know what to say.
"Has someone got you drunk up in love and now you don't know what to say?" She says sweetly. I smile again and look up back into her dark brown eyes.
"No I've had an argument with my boyfriend.......I'm not sure if he loves me anymore...." I say thinking about everything that had just happened.
"Don't worry love. He'll see through it and see what an amazing girl he's missing out on. My love I think you should go back and talk to him." She says smiling. I smile back.
"Thank you. I-I think I will." I say. She seems like a nice person and maybe I should just speak to Mat. See what he's got to say.
"It's fine. Call me Mary." She says standing back up.
"Thanks Mary." I say standing up. She smiles at me. The next thing comes a complete surprise to me though.
"I've heard yours and Mats music Alice, it's really good. That's why I think he's missing out." How would someone her age know me and mat? Wow. She starts walking in the opposite direction. I also turn around and start walking the way I came. I come across all the markets and smells I did previously that day. I walk up the steps to the room and as I open the door I see Mat frantically throwing things into a suitcase. His face is tear stained and he looks incredibly upset. I start to remember what happened earlier and I feel hot tears make their way down my face. I cry out.
"M-Mat what are you doing?!" I say walking further into the room. He spins round and looks at me. He's also crying.
"You obviously don't want me around anymore." He says resuming his packing.
"Well where are you going then?!" I start shouting.
"Home." He says avoiding eye contact.
"Why would you say that I don't want you?!" I say trying to keep calm but anger and sadness defeating me.
"Well you haven't answered any of my texts or calls." He says sighing. I stand there in shock. He had tried and contacted me?!
"Mat I didn't even know you had!"
"LAIR!" Mat starts shouting full force. And I take a step back
"YOUR JUST SAYING THAT SO I THINK IM WRONG AND YOUR RIGHT AS ALWAYS!" Mat is crying and screaming. A image I never thought I would see. I'm stood there arms out tears rolling down my cheeks stunned.
"IM LEAVING SO I CAN MAKE SURE MY BROTHER IS OK!" He says zipping up his case. He walks past me and out the door. When he's stood in the hallway he turns back and looks at me. He face is red and that makes me want to hug him even more than I already do.
"And I'm not coming back.......sorry." He says walking off. I'm standing there completely shocked with what's just happened. Did Mat just break up with me? I burst into pieces. I curl up on the floor and rock backwards and forwards crying my heart out as the sun sets over the city. All I can think is how I should have said those four words when I could "stay, I love you."