The Little Things ✔️

The song

This was it. My last chance to prove that we were still here. It's hard to think Matt isn't here and all I've got is a camera and music. I take a deep breath and look down at my sheet with our lyrics on for the last time. I put Matts song on in my ear and begin to sing. Trying to make it look like I was okay when inside I was dying. The first few chords strum and I begin.

It's been a hard year without you, everytime I'm alone I feel like I'm away from home. We've been through a lot behind closed doors. I love you even with your flaws. It may seem like the devils here. Always trying to guide us here.

To the point our song is more than fun. But I never want it gone. I love you and that remains. When I see you hurt it pains. All the rights and all the wrongs. And I just love writing these songs.

Matt my singing star. Ohhhhh ah oh, ah oh oh. Ohhhhhh ah oh. Ah oh oh.

I sit back in my chair when the songs finished and cry. Like I never have before. It's hard to think how far I've come since I met Matt. It's not real. I unplug my head phones and stop the camera and send over the footage to Matt.

As I sit there hours later waiting for the video to go live I can't help think that this isn't going to work out between us. My minds thought of some pretty crazy things recently but not as insane as this. I'm kind of shocked at myself for being able to come up with such a thing. But deep inside I knew I was right. Maybe Malice has had its time. I mean we were both getting caught up in each other's lives  and didn't know how to change it. Matt really was the best thing I could ever dream of but I felt and still feel like I'm fighting a losing battle. It pains me to think any more about the situation. It pains me to think because of my actions I've destroyed this mans life. I feel the sudden urge to tell someone. In the shaded night I open my phone and text all this to Nat. She always seems to have an awnser even if it wasn't always what I wanted to hear it was always for the best. And I knew her and Jason would still be up they always are, constantly browsing the Internet. Once I've sent the message I lie back on my bed and take in a deep breath. No more than 3 seconds later I get a message from Matt saying the videos up. I put it on all my social media and start reading through the comments. Majority of them are positive saying we dealt well with this situation and are amazing which honestly makes my heart flutter. The video Matt put together was beautiful, showcasing some of our funny, weird or just incredible moments. Even some of the "reasons" as we refered to them.

It's been about ten minutes since the video went live and I hear my phone buzz again. Presuming it's Nat I pick it up but when I look at the contact name "Matt" is what appears. I open the message and read it with anger, upset and worry in my soul.

Alice, please tell me what's wrong. Nat just sent me a screenshot of your message to her and I'm concerned. Al, I love you and would do anything for you I really, really don't want to end this relationship now. You've brought so much light into my life that I never knew existed. Reece is so much more happy that he has a friend like Pat. Please. Don't leave me. I love you xxx call me okay?

I instantly type a reply saying I was wrong and was just having a moment. I think maybe I was but it's still there at the back of my mind. Bothering me.

But it was all swiftly taken away the next week. By somthing truly incredible.