The Little Things ✔️

Nothings going to be the same again

Home, finally. The thing I had most been looking forward to.

It was a cold summer evening and the light was still in the sky creating a beautiful nights sky. Me and Matt walk hand in hand up the steps to our home. As we get closer the house looks deserted. There's no lights on and the door is wide open. I quickly turn my head round and look at Matt. He catches my eye and all I can see is panic all over his face. We stand there. Silent for a few minutes and then both give each other the look of "we should probably do something" and we both sprint inside and start shouting the names of those we loved.
"DAD! REECE? PAT?" I shout running up the stairs to see all doors open but no sign of life, I'm now filled with dread and worry. I turn sharply back around and run back down stairs to see Matt frantically searching the living room and Kitchen. He stops and raises an eyebrow at me... I sigh.
"Nothing, you?" Even though I already knew the words about to come out his mouth.
"No..nothing." I follow Matts body down to the floor and follow all the derby and paper scattered along the floor. A piece of paper catches my eye. I walk down the rest of the stairs and pick it up. I turn it around and notice it has some writing on it. Obviously from th scribbles done in a short amount of time. But I still notice it to be my fathers. I feel Matts arms make their way around mine as he reads if Ived my shoulder.

Dear Alice and Matt,
You may be wondering why the house is deserted and looks like it's gone to pieces well, that's hard to explain in the amount of time I have. All you must know is that Reece and Pat, they aren't safe anymore. Grab all the things you need and go, get away from here. As far as you can. And I promise I'll be in contact soon.
~ Dad xx

I look up at Matt in horror. He's gone as white as paper and is staring at the letter. Hi arms have tightened around my waist and is pulling my closer to his body.
"Matt, what are we going to do?" I ask. Silence fills the gap.
"Matt?" I say again.
"Let's go....." Is all he says.
"Grab anything you need and meet me here in 5 okay? I know where we can go." Matt says looking at me in the eyes. All I wanted to do was cry and cuddle up to Matt but I knew I couldn't. Especially not now. I needed to stay strong. I bit my lip to stop myself from crying and run upstairs and grab my journal, photo book and music folder, all the money I could find and a warm coat. As I'm searching through my room looking for things I come across another piece of paper scrunched up on my bed. I put down the items in my hands and undo it. It's in Matts handwriting and it sends electricity through my body.

The little things matter Al, and as I said they lead up to a big thing. This is the big thing. Will you marry me?

But what caught my eye was that it was scribbled out. As if it was wrong. I decided to keep the note and place it in my back pocket. I make my way down stairs suddenly feeling very tingly. Was Matt wanting to propose to me? I don't know what I would do if he did. Even if I forget to mention it to myself. Every moment I looked at Matt it made me shy. He reaches out his hand to me and we walk out of the remains of our home.
"So where now?" I ask looking into his deep blue eyes. We start walking down the road as Matt starts talking.
"Alice, I don't think you read all that letter did you?" Matt says making me worry. He hands me the letter and points to the bottom where my dad had added something else. As I read it my whole world shatters around me.

Matt, can you come to this address we need to talk about funerals.

I look back up at Matt shaking and upset. Tears blur my vision but I feel Matts strong srms around me and lift me up so he's carrying me. Before I know it I can taste his sweet cherry lips against mine. As we pull away he wipes a tear that's made its way down my face.
"Remember when you and me first met. You were and still are eveything to me Alice. Your the most beautiful girl I've ever met and your laugh and smile light up my life. But I need you to be strong while I'm gone. I've arranged for you to go to Lily's and Nats while I'm gone. I'm not sure how long that will he but I can promise when i get back I've got something planned." At that exact moment a taxi pulls up. I can't help but feel this is going to be the last time I see Matt for quite some time. I nuzzle my head into Matts neck and cry. I feel his arms tighten around me and his lips brush my cheek.
"Shhh it's going to be ok, I promise." Matt puts me down and comes down to my level. His eyes are bluer than ever and filled with tears. He's trying to be brave. God I love this kind sweet guy so much. His hands are still in mine at this point.
"I know it's going to go a while I know it will. So I've updated it and I want you, whenever you miss me to read these and I hope they make you smile okay? Would you believe we're at reason 90 already! A year together as well!" Matt says trying to lighten the mood. I give a little laugh but with tears down my face. I'm going to miss his arms, face, just him.
"I-I love you Matt." I say choking on my words.
"I love you too my gorgeous girlfriend." He says kissing me for the last time and handing me the jar. I take it in both hands and kiss Matt for the last time in I'm not sure. He knows I'm upset and afried. He always has and that's why he's here right now. That's why he loves me. I know but it's hard. Seeing him like this and having to leave him. He stands up and I turn around and get in the car. I feel alone. I'm already missing him. As the car pulls away I look out the window at the lonesome Matt standing in the rain looking at me smiling but crying. I can't bare it anymore. I take a deep breath and look away from the pavement. How long would this last? I pull out the note Matt had written again and re read it.

Remember the little things Alice.

Remember