Staz and I didnt text when in class today. Well, he texted me but I couldn't reply. I felt too awkward... Just, I don't know why. It could be because we made out pretty intensely in the bathroom, which probably is the reason I'm being so awkward. But at the same time, were dating.
I just don't fucking know! I want to so bad, but I want to wait till marriage, but I don't want to wait that long- I'm confused with myself.
I sighed.
"Hey, Kenra, you alright?"
"Huh?"
"You okay? You looked upset, or stressed. Maybe both?"
"I guess both. I'm sorry, how do you know me?"
"You were the guy who got sexually harassed by Jared in the bathroom. I'm one of Jared's ex's."
"Are we about to bond over being Jared's ex?"
"You're Jareds ex too?"
"Uh, yeah. Its a long story. Not sure if I want to get into it."
"So you're gay?"
"Uh yeah, pretty much."
"Hm..."
"What?"
"Nothing, I just don't know many gay people. And I seriously don't mean to sound homophobic, or mean-"
"Its fine not to know a lot of gays. I know a few here, they're just not out. Its whatever."
"Who're the closeted gays?"
"It's not my place to say."
"I guess you're right. Are you in a relationship?"
"I- uh... Yeah, I am. Its brand new."
"Who is it with? Do I know him?"
"Its just another person I can't say if he's gay or not."
"Sorry, I forgot."
"No, no. Its fine."
"What's he like?"
"So far, he's amazing. And an amazing kisser."
God, why did I say that.
"Oh really?"
"Heh, yeah. I'm not sure why I told you that..."
"What does it feel like to kiss another guy?"
"Its the same way of how it feels when you kiss a guy."
"Hmm... I guess."
"You guess?"
"Yeah, ha."
"You didnt tell me your name,by the way."
"I'm Alondra."
"That's a nice name."
"Thank you, and I haven't really met anyone else with the name Kenra."
"Yeah, me neither."
Alondra's cool. She does ask a lot of ridiculous questions about homosexuality, though. I do expect to talk to her more often. But hey, I have another friend I can talk about in group.
After that period, it was lunch. Staz and I met up behind a building that, not many people go. Mostly because its a shady place in school, a bit gross. But we don't mind.
"Why haven't you been texting me back?"
"You've been texting me? My phones been off, sorry."
"Or you've been ignoring my texts."
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