Suppose to Keep a Secret

Part 27

What the fuck? What was I thinking?! I mean I moaned Staz? Technically I wasn't cheating...

What am I saying? I totally cheated on Staz. He was right, I shouldn't hangout with him. Staz had a right to be mad, he knew.
I grabbed m phone and dialed Staz.

"Babe, you're finally responding. I'm so glad to hear from you. You have no idea how sorr-"

"You don't have to be sorry. Can you come over right now? I really need to talk to you. And not over the phone."

"What's wrong?"

My voiced cracked
"Please come over..."

"Yeah.. I'm on my way."

I keep pacing around my livingroom. I'm dreading the fact that what if Staz wants to break up? Is even saying "hey you were right about me to not hangout with Jared because I made him touch my dick in the car. But i mean: I moaned your name so like..."

LIKE NO!

Do I even tell him?

There was a knock at the door.

"Fuck."

I opened the door;

"Staz-"

I looked up, and it wasn't Staz. It was an older man. He had a concerned look on his face, but it was soft.
He looked kinda lost in a way. I could see he was about to cry.

"Uh, sir? Are you okay?"

"You've grown so much."

"I'm sorry?"

I saw my sister and Staz pull up at the same time. But my sister got out of her car and looked at me and she had a serious look on her face too.

I looked back at the man and he looked happy.

"Oh my god; you're"

"I'm so sorry I left, Kenra."

I put my hand over my mouth, I could feel my heart pounding. I was shaking. I've never seen my dad before.

"What're you- how did you find us?"

Jewl saw Staz heading towards the front door and she stopped him, I could see it in the corner of my eye.

"Dad, do you know what we've been going through?"

"I know I should've kept in touch but your mother wouldn't let me. Telling me I was the worthless one... I'm so sorry."

I saw Staz and Jewl coming towards the door;

"We should talk more inside Alex."

We all came inside, we sat on the couch. My dad sat in the rocking chair, Staz and Jewl sat beside me, me sitting in the middle.

"Whyre you here?"

"I had to see you, and I did with Jewls help."

"Jewl?"

"I was gonna tell you, Kenra. I've always kept in touch with Alex. It was just hard trying to bring it up to you."

"Mothers gonna kill you; both of you if she finds him here."

"Which is why we need to make this quick... Kenra, I know I haven't been around ever, and I know I was the one who screwed your mom up. But I'm so sorry, and I don't know how to explain it but I've always loved you. And I've always wanted to see you when I got out of prision-"

"Prision?!"

"That why I've been gone. I left you guys because I was a fugitive. I did a lot for your mother and Jewl."

Jewl scoffed,
"All you did was cause us more trouble. If I'm honest."

"In a sense, I stole food for the family and stole cars to sell for money. I obviously was going to get caught eventually. Your mother wouldn't let you talk to me because everytime I called her it was from prision. I remember hearing your voice in the back asking if it was your grandmother-"

"Stop... So you're telling me you just got out?"

"No, I've been out for a couple years. I've been searching for you and Jewl-"

"Even though you're not my dad."

"Anyway, I just had to see you. But I want to know if you wanna come see me sometimes. Obviously without your mother knowing. Maybe you could say you're going to this boys house... And in sorry, but who are you?"

"I'm Kenra's..."

"Boyfriend. Staz is my boyfriend."

"Boyfriend? I'm guessing your mother doesn't know."

"You should know her better than anyone else."

"Haha, your mothers always been old fashioned."

"I don't know though. Usually I love to go to Staz's house, but I also need to talk to you Staz. But I'm leaving for three weeks dad. Church camp..."

"Your mother?"

"Haha yeah... But uh, I'll think about it. I'm kinda confused right now, but I need to talk to Staz upstairs."

Staz and I went up to my room and I sat him on my bed.
He started to unbutton his pants;

"You fuck. Not that kind of talk."

"Maybe after?"

"I don't think you'd wanna after we talk."

Staz gave me a confused look.

"Staz, you know how much I love you right?"

"Of course."

"And you have every right to be mad at me right now."

"What?"

"You were right about hanging out with Jared. I shouldn't."

"Okay?"

"Jared gave me a ride home today, and we talked some stuff out. And there was a point where he kissed me-"

"What!"

"Please let me finish, okay?"
I looked down at the floor, I was already trying not to cry. But you could hear cracks in my voice.
"And; I was the one who kept kissing him, and I was the one who let him grope me... But the more he did it, I moaned. But I moaned your name... That's when I got out of the car."

"Kenra-"

"Staz I'm so sorry."
I could feel myself falling apart.

"Kenra, its okay."

"What?"
I looked at him.

"I said its okay. I'm not okay with it but, you told me. And you told me I was right. But, thank you for being honest."

Staz got up and went over to hug me.
I hugged him back.

"You don't understand how much you mean to me. This? Is nothing, plus I think its funny how you were thinking of me when with Jared."

"So you're not mad?"

"No I am. But im not as mad."

"I love you, Staz."

"I love you too."