Sanity (Peterick)

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Patrick's POV

Today's been easier than usual, my heads a little less crowded with voices. It's not exciting or anything because this happens a lot. I have good days and bad days, but never much in between.

But it's also kind of weird because all I've really been doing today is laying in bed thinking, and I would expect the voices to appear more now, but I guess I'm just got lucky.

I get jump scared a little when Pete opens the door out of nowhere.

"Hey, Patrick," he says.

"Hi,"

"So, I think we gotta talk about something,"

I sit up, because I know that when Pete says stuff like that, it's important.

"Okay,"

"Well, you see, I'm going not gonna beat around the bush this time, so I'll get straight to the point."

He's really got me listening.

"I'm gonna leave in a week,"

Honestly, in the back of my mind I saw this coming. Lately I have noticed his recovery going well, I've seen a major change in him. But I'm still disappointed. I stay silent and he sits down next to me.

"So, I'll be gone pretty soon, and I," he stopped for a split second, "I just wanna make sure you know, and how you feel,"

"I mean, I'm happy for you, man. Aren't you?"

"Well.. Yeah but Patrick, this means I gotta leave you,"

"But you'll still visit, right?"

He was again quiet.

"Right?" I said.

"You know, I thought that to myself too, but the thing is that I gotta go with my parents,"

"Yeah, they don't live far,"

"Actually, they moved to California not too long ago,"

Now, I really felt the sadness come in. I didn't think he'd have to be so far away.

"Of course, I will still visit you.. but only when I have the money,"

Uncontrollably, I feel my eyes start to water a little. God, I'm such a crybaby.

"Wait.. does this mean we have to break up?"

"No, no, no, Patrick, I'm not saying that at all, I promise,  it just means we'll be away from each other for a while,"

"But I don't wanna be away from you,"

He sat closer and let me lean on his shoulder for comfort.

"I don't want to be away from you either, I would never,"

"And I don't wanna be alone.."

"Listen, even when I'm not here, you'll always have Joe and Andy and Brendon and all of them, they'll always be there for you,"

"They're wonderful, but it's not the same,"

I can hear sadness in the silence.

*****

Pete's POV

The week is over.

I look out the office window to see my moms car pull up to bring me to the airport. It's six in the morning. I've already had a chance to say my goodbye to all my friends, except Patrick.

I quickly head back to Patrick's room, to see him one last time before I go. He's fast asleep from some heavy meds they gave him last night. I don't know what it was, but I tried and there is basically no way to get him to wake up at this point.

I have an idea, and I head back to the office and snag a pen off the counter without anyone seeing, and I head back to the room.

I head over to Patrick's hand, and I write. I wrote a small message on the palm of his hand, and on the back I draw a little bat heart symbol.

I hear the front door of the silent ward open. I give Patrick a kiss on the cheek and leave his room.

"Hi mom,"

"Hi sweetie," she came over to hug me and I hugged her back.

We headed out to the car, and as we pulled out of the drive way, I wave to Brendon who was standing right outside the building.

I watched the place from behind me until I couldn't see it anymore. All I could think of is how Patrick would be in the morning.

My mom wanted to catch up, but I made the excuse that I was tired and wanted to take a nap on the away to the airport.

I don't want to talk. When I feel this way, I don't wanna say one word to anybody. Anybody except Patrick.

I'm such a sucker for that boy.

Authors note

I'm back :) Goodness, it's been a while, hasn't it? I apologize for the wait.

Some things I want to say;
(A little late to say) Pretty obvious that this is my first story, so I'm sure there will be a lot of mistakes in it, and I feel that I have said this before (my memory sucks) but please be sure to inform me of any mistakes I make wether it's grammar or just things that seem too unrealistic. It really helps improve my writing skills for future fics. Another thing, is that I've started working on a side project story, so that when this ones over I can release that one as well and get another one going as soon as possible.
Big thank you for sticking with me! <3 you guys

Xoxo

P.s. My grandmas still alive and fighting :D