I'm just tired.
Mentally and physically.
It get's hard to pull my self out of bed each day. Sometimes, I don't.
Most people don't see me for who I am.
They see me as a monster.
A monster because I don't like talking and being social. A monster because it gets hard to love.
One day, I was starting off to my brother and he slapped me.
I cried to my mom and she asked him why he would slap a girl.
He replied "Because I didn't slap a girl."
It seems in life, no body forgets your mistakes. They judge you for life on the decisions you make. How am I supposed to learn from my mistakes when all my mistakes are is a constant failure?
So from now on,
I am just a monster.
I want to prove that I'm not a monster. I try my best everyday to fake a smile. I give my love and kindness to others, try to make them happy,
But it's never enough.
Peace......