Dricki: Boyfriend For Hire

Chapter 18: Interlude

White. Beep. White. Beep.

Everywhere I look I only see white and only hear this damn machine. I hate hospitals. This hell of silence is eating me alive as if I'm paying for everything I've done.

Ironic how the Universe can be so cruel, one day you're on top of the world and the next thing you know you lost it all. One minute you have the power the next you're being controlled.

Life is a just a joke for those you control us. We're nothing but their slaves.

You'd think these are words are cold and harsh... If I wasn't me, I'd think that too. If I was that guy I was once, I'd say this sounded stupid and that I should just be thankful for being alive.

But that was the old Aubrey, one that doesn't know how to live without a life. That Aubrey had everything, a good career, cool friends and a purpose in life that smiled for him everyday. A smile as bright as the sunshine. He had that person.

Now this Aubrey, saw his day sunsetting into an eternal darkness. This Aubrey lost his heart for a deep hole of misery. This Aubrey lost that person.

"If it makes you feel any better, you get out in a few days." Good thing the cool friends stuck around.

"Get me out of here now, Derek. I hate this place."

"If it was up to me, you'd be here a couple of more days taking care of that face of yours I wanna break a little more." He takes a deep breath.

"I did you a favour. Putting me in the case was a great idea, you can't deny it."

"Correction, biggest mistake I ever made! Drake, you were supposed to shut them down. What were you thinking!? If it wasn't for little girlfriend you would be dead by now."

"Dead but happy. That punk would be burning in hell." The beep beep sped up."

"But that wouldn't bring her back!" That sentence being shouted shocked both of us. No one talks about her out loud. "Y'know, I thought letting you work beside them would change something. Y'know, give you some kind of peace. Looks like it only made you go crazier."

My best friend's words hover and echo in the room. I didn't want nor mean any of this to happen, after all he and Micheal have been with me since day one.

"Can you take care of Furball for me? Poor guy, he must be hungry." I change the subject so he doesn't carry on with his sermon.

"Yeah, sure. You need anything else."

"Not really, just keep me informed of everything. I know I failed on my plan, but I hope you catch them." The beep beep was settling down.

"Will do. Just one more thing..." I nod. "Take my advice, she wouldn't want to see you like this. The Aubrey she loved wouldn't treat that woman the way you did."

Before I could answer, Derek walks away leaving me alone with my thoughts and doubts.

And once again, white and beeps.

That's when I start recalling that certain smile, complemented by some deep dimples. A smile from someone who besides being a little too crazy held a lot of joy no matter who serious they tried to be.

If there's anything I hate more than hospitals, it's my conscious.

Today's Aubrey was an idiot for treating that smile rudely, cold for pushing away the only person that had made me forget my pain for a second.

I have been foolish, I hope it's not to late to apologise.