The Boy In Pink

Chapter 19: I'll Always Be There

A/n: This chapter will be a short one but the next ones should be longer hopefully

Feng Huang

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"W-w-what?" I whispered, my lip trembling.

"We can't be together anymore"

"Why not?" I said, feeling tears gather in my eyes.

"Sungmin will just stay an alcoholic if we're still together"

"We can help him stray from that though-"

He laughed humorlessly. "You don't get it, do you?"

"Of course I do!"

"The only way he's going to leave the alcohol is if you're his again. If we're still together, nothing we do will stop him from drinking 5 litres of the stuff a day"

"But we can surely find another way-"

"No, HyeLim. There is no other way"

"Why do you care about this all of a sudden?" I said. tears running down my cheeks.

"My best dongsaeng almost died!" he said angrily, so angrily I jolted and stepped back. He closed his eyes, trying to stop tears from coming out of them. "And I never want that to happen again"

"Are you even thinking about me in all of this?" I exclaimed. He put his hands on my shoulders and looked me in the eyes.

"Of course I am" he said quietly. "It's been killing me watching you cry here in hospital. I don't want to see tears flow from your beautiful eyes. I want to see your cute smile"

I said nothing and looked down.

"Hey" he said gently, tipping my chin up. "You know this is for the best. It was your destiny to be Sungmin's bride, and I just changed it with that kiss. Go back to him, get warm with him, get married, have kids, do what you might've already been doing if I hadn't come"

"But if you hadn't come I'd miss out on you"

He tried to smile.

"And maybe that would've been best. Sungmin needs you just as much as you need him"

"Hankyung..."

He cut me off by kissing me softly.

"I have to leave here soon"

"How soon?" I asked.

"In about 3 days."

"Hankyung, no!" I exclaimed, tears escaping from my eyes by the motherload now. He grabbed me in his arms and rocked me.

"Shh...Yes, Lim,  I have to go back to China until the end of August for the Olympic Games"

Tears continued to fall from my eyes as he pushed me arms length away from him.

"But I'll always be there. I'll always be right here" he said, placing his hand on my pounding heart.

He picked up my other hand with his spare arm and put my hand on his own chest.

"And you'll be in my heart" he whispered.

I still couldn't believe he was breaking the current so suddenly. Before I could open my mouth, he spoke again.

"Go in. It'll all become clear then" he said, kissing my forehead and letting me go. I hesitated, but he put his hand to his chest.

"You'll always be here, remember?"

I nodded and  walked back into the ward, dazed. I stared at Sungmin resting peacefully on the bed, his eyes closed, a tiny smile on his face.

And that was when everything Hankyung said clicked inside of me.

Sungmin was always mine, even when I was with Hankyung. Something always kept me connected with him, whether it was a tiny thread of hope or a big, thick rope of love. One little kiss from Hankyung ate away at the connection until he was hanging onto me by the skin of his teeth. I was always worried sick about Sungmin even when he did come home unharmed. When he made a joke to the boys when he had sobered up I fought not to laugh. In those dreams I would always cry over Sungmin. And most of all, despite the fact I was with Hankyung, I knew deep down, I still loved Sungmin with all my heart.

I wanted Sungmin back so badly my heart twisted in emotional pain. I did still adore Hankyung, but I knew it was Sungmin who my heart truly wanted.

But I still had to say goodbye.

I took advantage of Sungmin sleeping and ran out into the hallway, my eyes searching for Hankyung.

But it was too late. He had already disappeared

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I walked back into Sungmin's ward after 5 minutes of staring into space. He was awake.

"Hey, Lim. Where's Hankyung?"

"He...left" I said.

"Why does your voice sound funny all of a sudden?"

I walked up to Sungmin and sat in the chair next to his bed. I breathed in deeply.

"You know how me and him had to talk?"

"Yes?"

"Well...we called our relationship off"

His eyes popped.

"Why? I mean, I do still love you, but now Hankyung will hate me!"

"No. He won't"

"Why not? How do you know?"

"Because he called it off. He knew that no matter how much I said he was my first love, that would never be true"

He stayed silent, stunned.

"My first love was, and always will be, you, Sungmin" I said, taking his hand in mine and stroking it with my thumb. "I wish I had never blew off at you at all. I wish that that kiss was nothing, even though it gave me a sweet boy to love"

"So you want me back?" he asked slowly.

"Yes. If you'll let me" I said. "I am so sorry for all the heartbreak I've caused you"

His face was expressionless.

"I don't know..." he said, after a while of silence.

He saw my face fall and laughed.

"Gosh, Lim, I was only playing with you"

"What?" I said, a bit annoyed he wasn't being at all serious in a serious situation.

"Of course I'll have you back! It shouldn't be you who's sorry, It should be me. I didn't let you nor Hankyung explain that day he kissed you. I have wanted you back since that very day, and I knew seeing you with him was simply what I brang on myself"

"So...you'll let me kiss you?"

He tutted. "No, just like we lead the waltz, boys take the kiss"

"Not this time, Pink Prince" I said, grinning and leaning into him. My lips softly connected with his and he put his hand behind my neck. I pulled away, knowing it couldn't get too passionate. Instead, I wrapped my arms around his waist. He copied me, snaking his arms around to my back and rubbing my back with his hand.

"I love you, my chubby cheeked girl"

"I love you, my Pink Prince"

"You know who you remind me of?"

"Who?"

"My friend Henry"

"Why?"

"His cheeks are just as chubby as yours"

We both laughed.