/Lennon/
"Give me a kiss and I'll let you leave" Austin holds my waist tightly, keeping me from climbing up the ladder to the pool.
"I don't want a kiss" I pout, and he copies me.
"But I do" He whines "Please" He leans in slowly, and I decide to not make him wait any longer and I close the space between our lips. The kiss is a lot longer than I had expected, and Austin pulls away first, leaving a couple kisses to my lips before letting me go. I climb out of the pool and walk inside, passing Kyle on the way out.
"Hey, I need to talk to you" I hear Austin say "I feel terrible right now, and I need your help"
"What's up?"
"I did something bad" Austin says, and my ears perk up.
"What did you do?" Kyle asks.
"So, you know how I went over Lennon's two days ago?" He begins and I sit close to the window so I can listen "Well, I stayed over and we hung out with her friends yesterday and while we were at the mall we ran into Lynn..." He trails off.
"What happened?"
"Nothing really happened in the mall, she was just being herself. But I decided that I'd drop off Lennon and go talk to her because she was being immature" He says "But uh... that didn't exactly happen"
"What do you mean?" Kyle asks "Dude, what the hell happened?"
"She gave me a blowjob, and I didn't stop her" He blurts and my mouth falls slightly, sadness washing over me.
"What? Why? How did that happen?" Kyle floods him with questions.
"I don't know" Austin sighs in frustration "I have to tell Lennon"
"No! You can't do that! She'll hate you forever" Kyle discourages.
"But maybe if I tell her, she'll appreciate that I told her rather than have her find out for herself"
I step away from the window and sit down on the couch, not wanting to hear anymore. I fiddle my fingers as I think over the fact that he let her do that. I get that we're not dating, but I figured we weren't nothing.
I do appreciate the fact that he's willing to tell me, but it's not going to make me feel any less angry than I feel now. If anything it'll make me feel worse when he's saying it to my face.
"Hey!" Brit chirps and I smile, waving.
"Hi Brit"
"How was your day off?" She winks.
"It was a day off" I laugh.
"Well, I'm glad you're back" She smiles, dropping her things.
***
"Lennon, can I talk to you?" Austin runs up to me as I unlock my car.
"Uhm, I'm kind of in a hurry" I shake my head.
"Please, it won't take long"
"Austin, I really have to go. Shane's sick and he turns into a diva" I roll my eyes "You can always call me"
"This isn't really something I'd like to say over the phone" He scratches the back of his neck.
"We have tomorrow, or you can come over later" I shrug "But I have to go" I lean up to kiss his cheek, against my better judgement and climb into my car, driving home.
"Finally you're fucking here bitch! It's not like I'm dying and there's so many people here to take care of me" Shane sneers, his voice scratchy.
"Sorry, I got caught up at work" I sit down beside him, his legs stretching over my lap.
"Hmm, blowing Austin?"
"Nope, avoiding him" I shrug, and he sits up, looking at me in confusion.
"What? Why?"
"He went over Lynn's yesterday and let her blow him and he's trying to tell me but I don't want to hear it because I know I'll flip out, and I don't want to do that"
"So he hasn't told you?" He asks, and I shake my head "Then how do you know?"
"I heard him tell Kyle" I sigh "I don't know what to do, I don't want him to tell me, but I also don't want to pretend nothing happened"
"Why don't you want him to tell you?"
"Because then I'll know that it's all true, and I don't think I'll be able to handle it. I've always had to compete with someone else in every relationship I've been in, and I can't handle another one. And she's his ex, it can't get worse" I run a hand over my face in frustration.
"I can't tell you not to worry, and I know that's shitty, but I'm not sugarcoating anything. This situation sucks"
"I know" I sigh "I'm going to call him to tell him he can come to talk" I stand up from the couch "Do you need anything?"
"No" He shakes his head "I'm probably just going to take a nap"
I walk up the steps to my room, and text Austin telling him he can come over whenever if he wants to talk. He texts me back minutes later telling me he's on his way and I begin to feel nervous.
I wait for there to be a knock at my front door, but much to my surprise my bedroom doors opens. I turn around seeing that Austin is at my bedroom door.
"Uh, Kylie let me in" He mumbles and I nod, sitting up in my bed. I pat the spot next to me and he sits down, keeping distance from me.
"So, what's up?" I ask, as if I don't already know.
"Well, you know you mean a lot to me right?" He pulls his lip ring between his teeth.
"I'd hope so" I chuckle lightly, wrapping my arms around my legs, bringing them to my chest.
"I did something bad..." He mumbles, much likely he did to Kyle "Like really bad"
"What happened?"
"I had sex with someone else"
"What?" I ask in surprise, and not fake surprise, actual surprise, he had sex with her. Not just got a blowjob.
"I'm so sorry"
"With who?" I ask, wanting him to say it.
"Lennon-"
"No Austin, with who?"
"Lynn" He sighs "But I didn't mean for it to happen"
"How do you not mean for it to happen?" I scoff.
"You need to remember I was with her for two years. You can't just throw that away in two days"
"Oh, my bad" I sarcastically state "How could I ever be so inconsiderate?"
"Lennon-"
"No! Don't Lennon me! What happened to you saying that you knew you'd never feel the same for her after seeing me? Obviously that was all a load of bullshit!" I yell.
"No it wasn't" He shakes his head "I really like you and I want to be with you, but I at one point in time was in love with her"
"I'm tired of being caught in between. I've always had to compete with someone's ex and I'm tired of it" I shrug.
"But you're not competing"
"Obviously I am if you go and have sex with your ex" I run a hand through my hair "I can't, I can't do this right now" I shake my head, standing up.
"I'm sorry" He stands up too "I'll leave, but I want you to know I'm so sorry"
I don't respond and he sighs, walking out of my room.
"What happened? I heard yelling" Kylie walks into my room once Austin leaves.
"I don't know" I shake my head, my lip quivering as tears fill my eyes.
"Oh, Lenny" She wraps her arms around my shoulders.
"Why does this always happen to me?"
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