The Repents

Chapter6 : The Diary!

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7th July 2014
My life totally shifted its poles.... The people I loved turned out against me. Claiming me to be the culprit. Taking me wrong.
I was watching Belgium vs Argentina FIFA semi-finals when I don't know what happened. I got up from the sofa in the TV lounge and walked towards my room. I felt dad's anger, something was definitely up and I sensed that its me causing it. I asked mon if she knew, which she didn't. After dinner, I sat with dad quietly while he was watching his political talk show, and hesitantly asked him.... Then he started off with that agony, intense look.
"You're talking to him again," he said with a hushed voice, I knew he meant Harry, he hated him.
"Don't you have any self respect ? 3 times, Mavis. 3 times. I take your phone, he gives you another one. I ground you, he sneaks in. What do I do with you guys? I told you to stay away. Tell me. Do u wanna marry him???" He was shouting at me now, looking at me with those questioning eyes.
I honestly wanted to shout out loud said Yes.... Yes I wanna marry him..... And yes he would do anything for me. Anything to stay close to me.... But I just couldn't speak. My voice just wont come out, I literally froze on the couch I was sitting. My voice was gone....
It was all clear in my heart that I loved him and out of all the guys in the world I would choose him..... Dad kept on saying something, his voice muffed into my ears... Out of which I heard, "...... What are you trying to do? Are you flirting with him?"
I finally bursted out.
" My intentions aren't wrong.... I'm not flirting." Tears oozed out of my eyes.
"You would never think up to your level..... You're thinking and standards would stay low, gutter level." He would occasionally jerk me and I could only understand bits of what he said, "Mavis.... He would leave you.... I have seen the world, more than you have."
He was calm now.
"Dad, he's doesn't need anything, he wont leave me, he's not like that. You cant just say something like that about someone you don't know. Just talk to him once..... We were waiting for the right time to tell you."
He wouldn't listen he just told me to go away. I didn't know what to do so I went to my room. I didn't find my cellphone so I went back to dad and demanded for it. When he refused time and again, so I went back to my room. Tears fell down my cheek. I was hot and tired of the argument.
When I talked to Harry again, he was so worried, "Mavi... Are you ok ? I love u so much... I was so worried."
I told him everything and then he saw my Facebook account that night and he saw some people he didn't want me to talk to..... I lost his trust. He switched off his phone.
The next I kept calling him, some 54 calls and 38 texts but no reply...... I was scared to death, I thought he would never talk to me again.... I called him in the evening...... He was still mad but sounded ok when he heard me crying.....
"Mavis.... I love u, ok? I cant share." He said. "

I shut the diary..... This was our first fight.... Remembering it brought tears into my eyes. I remember a month a go from now possessiveness annoyed me and how much I want all that now. Turning over a new leaf is like turning the cheek to life, as it's full of hardships. I showed the white feather to it, requesting them to leave me alone but non to any good.
I was the black sheep caught red-handed and was considered to be tapered with red tapes 😪