The Repents

Chapter 14: The Last Goodbye!

"Mavis, one more day to our wedding," he said dreamily.
"Can't wait! Now go Chad, and hurry back tomorrow." I kissed him and hugged him goodbye.
Chad walked dreamily towards his house,across the road, facing towards me while I waved him. No sooner did he turn towards his house, a glossy black car, squashed him flat.
My whole body went numb. I couldn't feel anything below the neck. My knees started wobbling, because the trees were suddenly moving. I could hear the blood pounding faster than normal behind my ears.
I screamed and cried my way to Chad. The car drifted away, crowd gathered, the ambulance was called. Chad was laden with blood. I was crying my eyes out. There was a light, unnatural breeze. My eyes flashed open. Chad was taken into the operation theatre.
My parents were there, along with Chad's family. My life just shifted it's poles again the floor underneath me was gone. I was cold and numb again. Lost again. I couldn't think, I was dead, numb, empty!
After an hour or so the doctor came out and I took him by his collar.
"How is he? Is he gonna be ok? Speak to me," I was shouting out loud.
"He needs prayers, we're working on it, you need to calm down, ma'am."

Jessica; Chad's sister who lived in Boston with her husband, grabbed me and gave me a hug. I cried out loud. I couldn't imagine letting him go. He was the only reason I existed now. He gave me a new life. He cant give up. He'll have to live, fight for me.
He's like a drug to me.... It's like something gushing down my throat, a painful infection,when I don't see him...... It's been a long day, it feels like a millennium. I love him, he reached my heart.... I was aware of that but it seems like a revelation that he reached my soul too!
His absence bites me and seems like as if some black hooded creatures surround me and I cant see him. I cant see my light, they're blinding me. They wouldn't let me through even if I beg for mercy..... Blood tears gushing out of my eyes and oozing down my cheeks.... I cant see the one to wipe them away.
My brain strikes on the adrenaline and my blood goes dry. I want mercy, my water, my oxygen. The absence has created a deep, hollow, hole in my chest again..... It aches and hurts alot bringing tears into my eyes..... The one who said,
" Your tears are like gems, I won't ever let them fall."
He's nowhere to be seen. My tears ooze out and he's not here to collect his gems.
All I want is to hear his voice, hold him in my arms, hug him, cry out loud out of relief and tell him that I am madly, irrecoverably, irrationally in love with him.
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The doctor came out again.
"He's awake," a sigh of relief came out of me.
"Is he gonna be okay?" I inquired.
"Well, we can't say yet. His condition is still critical but he wishes to see Mavis."

I rushed in without another word.
There he lay, with bandages all over him, an oxygen mask on his mouth. As I walked close he feverishly raised his hand. I grabbed it and sat on the stool next to his bed. I was in tears; controlling, making sure he doesn't see them. Unfortunately, failed. He rubbed my tear off and took his mask off.

"I would like to -- ask for a favour, if thats not too much," he said.
A tear rolled out of my eye. I wonder what he saw on my face, because something flickered across his own in response.
"Anything," I vowed, my voice faintly stronger.
As I watched, his frozen eyes melted. The gold became liquid again, molten, burning down into mine an intensity that was overwhelming.
"Don't do anything stupid or reckless," he ordered. "Do you understand what I am saying?"
I nodded helplessly.
"Take care of yourself, Mavis."
"Chad, don't talk like this, you'll take care of me remember. You'll be okay in no time," I cried.
He smiled, "I will."
"I love you." I sounded like there was something stuck in my throat, like I was choking.
"I love you too, Mavis."
Just then his heartbeat accelerated and his eyes started to droop I shouted for the doctor and the nurse pushed me out of the room and it was all blurry again. We all sat praying and praying after 20mins the doctor approached with a serene mask.
"How is he?" I demanded.
"I am really sorry, he's no more!"
The ground under my feet collapsed.
"No.....," I whispered.
I was dizzy; it was hard to concentrate. His words swirled around in my head. I tried to breathe. I needed to concentrate; to find a way out of this nightmare.
"Goodbye, Mavis," I heard it in Chad's voice.
"Wait!" I chocked out the word, reaching for him, willing my deadened legs to carry me forward.
I thought he was reaching for me, too. But his cold hands locked around my wrists and he leaned down, and pressed his lips very lightly to my forehead for the briefest instant. My eyes closed.
He was gone.
I knelled there on the floor at the hospital my surroundings were blank; I couldn't hear, feel or think of anything.
Just then something prickled in me, " No, no way! This can't be" I shouted.
"Dad?" I looked at him, he was near tears.
I smiled, "I'm gonna get married tomorrow."
My eyes went blank and I fainted. Around me were cries. Jessica and Dorothy were crying too. It was the last goodbye after all.
I felt like I was trapped in one of those terrifying nightmares. The ones when you have to run, run till your lungs burst, but you cant make your body move fast enough. My legs seemed to move slower and slower as I fought my way through the callous crowd, but the hands on the huge clock tower didn't slow. With relentless, uncaring force, they turned inexorably towards the end - the end of everything. I was surrounded by the extraordinarily dangerous enemies; tragedies. As the clock began to toll out the hour, vibrating under the soles of my sluggish feet. I knew I was too late. I fortified any desire live if all this was real.
The clock tolled again, and the sun beat down from the exact centre point of the sky.