The Perfect Storm. . . . Book 1

My life is changed forever. Chapter 7

"Today is your opportunity to build the tomorrow you want."

Ken Poirot

Since that night at the West End, there has been a fear settling in, even after hearing his words and seeing his actions. I still find myself fearing this unknown. Yes, this with Chris and I, is unfamiliar territory. Things seem normal but in a way they are not.

After my suspension and me returning to school, the vibes in the hallways were so different, odd even. The first face I saw on my return was Chauncey and I guess he and Chris talked about what happened with us. I say this because of the huge grin he is wearing across his face. "Hey Stormy or should I address you as Mrs. Bonilla?" I giggle and just shake my head at him with a loving punch to the shoulder. "So, I take it you have spoken to Chris?" He smiles. "Remember when I use to tell you all the time, that man wanted you? But you would blow me off and not pay a word I said any attention? Well now don't you feel foolish for ignoring me and thinking I was fucking with you? But really Storm, I'm glad you both choose to finally stop being stupid and give it a try." He gives me a hug and jumps back from me, I guess waiting for me to punch him or yell at him for touching me. Wow, know hands being thrown! Hmmm. Anyways, you both need one another, and I think you two are the perfect match cause I sense both of you need to heal. I know Chris, I am getting to know you and I see so much hurt that you try to hide. Stormy just open up a little, he just might surprise you. I give him a hug and Chauncey just stares at me but smiles. After my first week back, it was natural for me to be around Chris, nothing seemed different to me. Sure, there were whispers and rumors of us always being together swirling around but it didn't matter. I never thought I could ever be with anyone. So, for now, forget what folks think and say. I dont know how long this will last, so I am going to enjoy this for as long as I can.

Most of the class is already in there but the teacher isn't, I happen to catch a look from Brandi that says, " why you?" I look at her and just laugh and take my seat. Soon the teacher comes, and class begins. Most of the morning was a blur because I had more important things on my mind then school. Such as Chris asking me to make it official between us but to be honest, I thought we were already official? Hello, this is my first relationship ever. So, I need a little help here. So, we have been kicking it as you can see, its been nothing but you and me. So, I was thinking we might as well make this thing official unless there is someone else you want? I want to giggle but instead, well there is this one guy I met at Mellon Park last summer. He was cool as hell, I dont know if you know him or not, Derrick? Well anyways, we have been kinda talking off and on and right now Im just torn at who I should chose. If I could have taken a picture of Chriss face in this moment, I would. His mouth is wide open, his face is changing colors, his arms are just limp by his side. Its killing me not to laugh, Stormy, what did you just say? The rage behind those words made me cut the joke short! Chris, calm down. I was joking, I swear I was joking! Im laughing cause Im nervous cause he is looking all crazy. His eyes are smoldering with rage. See now I wouldve been wrong if I snapped at ya ass! All I know is you best be playing girl. One thing you must get and understand is this, Im not one to play with people and their feelings and I dont expect for mine to be played with or my time wasted. I stare at him; I get exactly what he means about wasted time and fake feelings. Chris, I was playing and Im sorry if you thought I was taking you and your feelings for granted. Never were my intentions at all. He watches me and as he does, I can see his looks soften. Cool, just dont.

Now folks at the house are starting to notice I'm hardly around. My dad is back in town and asking why I am hardly home, how I need to be around the house more and do my share, how instead of running behind a boy; I need to get a job, blah blah blah blah. My mind is also clogged with thoughts of how being with Chris is all I want but it is also scary at the same time. I mean when we are together, nothing and I mean nothing else seems to matter or count. I feel safe and protected, which is strange to me, Ive never left my safety to another to care for. Just him being near makes everything in my world alright. I know, I know, silly of me for putting that much faith in someone but it feels so natural to do so with him. Its an odd emotion, this thing called love, but then again would I even know or understand this thing called love. Is this feeling that swirls around inside of me when he is around, is that love? Is this love? Do I love Chris? It never crossed my mind that these emotions and feelings I have when Im around him, could this be love? Hell no, this isnt love! I know it cant be because someone like me, love doesnt happen to me. Love has never been a friend of mine; I was never taught to love or be loved. Hell, even as a young girl, I dont believe I ever felt what love is. I sure as hell, have never felt the love between a parent and a child, a love between siblings, love is so foreign to me and I must honestly say, I dont believe me to be capable of loving anyone, including myself.