Why Here?

Chapter 22

I look over at him confused at the name.

"Just read it."

I nod and turn back to the page. His handwriting sloppy but legible. I could tell he was writing quickly before the thoughts left his head.

His hands tightened around my waist as I read.

'Let me be the one to lift your heart up and save your life,

I don't think you even realize baby you'd be saving mine.'

The words make my heart melt. It's how I felt. He made me happier and he said I made him happier too. I bite my lip to keep from crying.

"Niall."

"Keep reading." he doesn't look at me.

My eyes scan the page taking in every word.

'It's only been four months but,

You've fallen down so far,

How could someone mislead you at all?'

I knew he meant our first time. How I got so humiliated I made him leave.

No. I don't want to think about that. Not now.

I finish reading and look down at him still leaning against my shoulder.

"Niall." He turns his head up to look at me. "It's beautiful. I-I can't even begin to thank you." A hitch in my throat makes it obvious I was close to tears.

He brings his lips to mine. I couldn't explain the feeling I had just reading it.

"Why Diana?"

"Princess Diana dealt with her insecurities just like you and throughout all of that she made it.

You're gonna make it. I'm gonna be there to help you." He says with the most sincerity.

"We barely know each other. Do you really think this is going to last when we both get out of here?" I whisper

"Yes. I'm going to make sure it does." He smiles.

I clutch the journal in my hands. "It's perfect." I move closer to him. Not that it was very possible. "I can't believe it's for me."

"I told you Lennox. You make me want to be better."

"I'm going to help with everything i can. Whenever you need me I'll be there. I promise." His eyes soften on mine letting me know he was happy with my words.

"I think you need some rest." I say standing up. His hands don't leave my waist. He looks up at me with sad puppy dog eyes.

"Oh don't do that to me."

"Lay with me. Please?" He sticks out his bottom lip.

"My moms here." I sigh

"Please. You came here. Please." He sounds so desperate I couldn't say no.

I nod slowly and lay next to him. He pulls me to him laying his head on my stomach. I brushed my fingers through his hair. I watched his eyes slowly flutter closed. I couldn't keep my eyes open any longer and dozed off.

My eyes shoot open to the sound of my mom calling my name down the hall. I look down at Niall still asleep. I roll him over gently trying to keep him asleep. I stand up and peak out the door. She turns down the hall and I run out. "Mama." I say loudly.

"Len where were you?" She breathes.

"I'm sorry. I was uhm talking to Jackie. What's wrong?"

"Nothing I'm leaving. Have work later."

I nod slowly. "Okay mama. I love you." I whisper. "Thank you so much." I hug her tightly.

"Of course honey. You know I don't have much but I always try my best." She kisses the top of my head before pulling away.

"I know mama. I love you so much." She smiles before walking out. I start to walk towards my room when Nialls door slams against the wall opening quickly. I jump almost out of my skin. "God!" I scream.

"You left me!" He exaggerates.

"My mom was leaving Niall. I had to say bye."

"You could've woken me up and told me instead of just leaving!" I look up at his face trying to understand his anger. Before I could argue he pulls me to him "I'm sorry. I just don't like not knowing where you are."

"Niall. I'm going to be away from for a few minutes here and there." He shakes his head "yeah and I'll know where you are." His grip tightens.

He kiss my forehead, I could feel his breathing slow. "It's okay. I'm sorry." I breathe.

"I'll tell you next time."

(I know it's a short chapter but don't worry I'll make sure the rest are really long. Thank you guys so much for reading! )