Why Here?

Chapter 27

Niall's POV

I still can't believe she couldn't just tell Jackie they were just scratches. They basically were. God. She knows how I get when I'm alone! She's so stubborn! Ugh I need to lay down. I push my tray away and stomp back to the room slamming my door behind me. I grab my journal and throw it across the room the pen flying out from between pages. I grip the small twin mattress lifting it in the air and smashing it on the floor. I kicked my suitcase laying on the floor. I needed something I calm me down. I need it.

I pace the floor slowly trying to come up with a way to get back my stash. My mind racing I freeze. I remembered when I got here and they searched my bags. Taking every single pill, liquor, and powder I had. They never threw them out. They gave them to a nurse. They must still have them somewhere. I open my door slowly hoping no one heard me having a tantrum. The hall is clear. I make my way down to the the conference room. Next to it was the nurses office. She must have them. I knock on her door softly. Of course she answers.

"Yes?" Her annoyingly old voice penetrates my ears.

"Yeah someone's hurt in the caf. They need you." I lie.

She quickly grabs her first aid kit and rushes away.

I smirk being amused at how gullible she was. I silently shut her door and rummage through her drawers. I spot a small white needle in a cabinet. I shove it in my pocket. I open her grey cabinets above the sink and a clear devilish smile spreads across my lips. I grab the first thing I see. That being my soft white powder. My heroin. All I need is a lighter. I remember the nurse. Her clothes a dingy yellow, her voice raspy, her body reeked with smoke. She must have a lighter here somewhere. I look around the room slowly finding her purse on the floor. I grab it quickly and finally find her lighter in a side pocket along with a pack of gum. I stuff my pockets with everything I've found and run back to my room before she came back.

I push my door clothes and sit with my back against the door. I dig around in my suitcase for a spoon. I knew they were too oblivious to take that too. I pour the powder onto the spoon. My eyes glisten as i watch the white crystals fall. I snap the lighter on. The flame hitting the bottom of the spoon. I watch as the white powder disintegrates turning into a clear liquid. I pull the needle out of my pocket. I pull back the plunger of the needle my eyes following the liquid flow into the tube. I grab the rubber band I stuffed into my pocket from the nurses office. I tie a tight knot around my arm above the elbow. I flick the need to prepare for the feeling. I bring the needle to my arm. The moment it punctures my skin my eyes close and my head tilts back. The feeling sensational.

Lennox's POV

"Jackie. Please don't make me stay here. I'll do the hourly sessions and I'll take the check ups but please let me stay in my room."

"You know I can't Lennox. I'm sorry but you know the rules."

"I do but there's somebody that needs me and I need him. If I'm away from him it makes it all worse. And same for him. Please."

Jackie turns towards me. "Is it the boy at breakfast?" I nod slowly. "He didn't look to happy with you."

"That's because he knows what he's capable of."

"Do you?" She asks.

I shrug." Not yet but I'm willing to find out to be able to help him. Please Jackie."

"Do you promise that you won't do it again? And if I come every ten minutes to check on you, you will be ready?" I nod quickly.

"Fine. But you better not let me down."

I smile big "OF COURSE I WONT!" I hug her tightly. "Thank you thank you thank you!"

"But first tell me what you meant by what he's capable of."

"I don't know.." I sigh

"Yes you do. Just talk to me."

"When the ambulance came it was for him. He had a withdraw. When he woke up at the hospital he told me that when I'm not near him his thoughts take over. They ruin his mind. Making him do to many things. That was only fifteen minutes. I can't imagine what could happen for a week. He needs me."

Her eyes widen. "Wow. You're brave."

"Why brave?"

"Because you're willing to risk your well being and mentality to help someone that could easily stop caring about you at the word cocaine. We all heard his story. You heard what he's done. That could be you."

I shake my head slowly backing away from her. "No... You're wrong.. He said he needed me. Those girls were just ways to get his drugs. I'm not giving him anything he is giving me back."

"Just be careful. I don't want you to have a relapse from him hurting you."

I try to catch my breath. I seemed to have lost it listening to her speech. I turn around walking slowly out the door. My thoughts run wild. Was Jackie right? Was I right? Was he just using me? Was I just a toy for his time here?

I thoughts end when I get to Niall's door. I lift my arm to knock when I hear him moaning. He couldn't be. He wouldn't. I squeeze my eyes shut trying to erase the images of him with someone else. I knock softly.

"Come in." He half whispers half sings.

I turn the knob and push on the door. It only opens a crack before the door stopped. I tried to push hard but something was blocking it.

"Oweeeeee." Niall sings.

"Niall? It's me. Lennox. Let me in."

"Lennie!!!" He laughs. He slides his body towards the mattress on the floor letting the door open more. I look down at the sweaty boy on the floor. His eyes blood shot red. His pupils widened to the point of no return.

"Niall?"

"Hi Lennie." He smirks.

"What did you do Niall?" My voice cracks.

"The nurse had my stash! I found it. Shhh." He mumbles.

"Your stash?" A lightbulb went off. "Oh Niall.. Please tell me you didn't."

"You left me. I had to." He chuckles.

"But I'm here. Now look at you. You're disgusting." Tears drop off my cheeks.

"Lennie? Are you mad at me?" He sticks out his bottom lip.

"Yes I am." I turn towards to the door.

"Don't leave me."

I freeze. "If I stay do not talk to me, do not touch me, do not even look at me."

"Why?"

"Because right now you're not Niall. Not my boyfriend." I move and sit by the dresser. Far away from him.

He say up and started to scoot over to me.

"No! Stay over there." I turn away from him. I pull my knees I my chest trying to hide my sobs. I was gone for five minutes.

How could I leave him alone for more then that with out worrying about him doing this or something worse.

My heart was aching at the thought.

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I just don't know how to handle it.