Demigod x Reader

Will x Reader (doctor daddy) {part 5}

warning:self-harm/self-hate

---your pov---

I just sat there and cried. I didn't care anymore. Not at the moment. At the moment, I wanted to kill myself. How would I handle this without him? But I didn't, I couldn't kill myself for two reasons: one, I knew death wasn't the answer, two: I had my kids to take care of. The twins, and the unborn one.

I didn't know how long it been once I finally looked up from my arms. The twins were tugging at the bottom of my shirt, trying to get my attention. I wiped the tears away and looked at them, picking them both up and gently putting them on my lap, I gave them a sad smile.

The kids looked the most confused they've been since they were born. They obviously didn't know why mommy was crying and why daddy wasn't home.

I bit the bottom of my lip, the smile fading. I held onto them tightly. I didn't let go, not for a long while. I didn't to let go in fear I may lose them to. I couldn't let that happen.

I lost so much. My parents, siblings, Willow, now Will. I couldn't lose anybody else, not yet.

I checked the time 10:45. It was way pass when the twins and I should've been asleep. I sighed "you're sleeping in mommy's room tonight" I told them, picking them up.

I walked slowly to the bedroom and took in the scent. It smelled like a cologne scent that Will always used. I sat the twins down on the bed. I needed to child proof this. The bed was a queen size but I was still nervous they would roll over in their sleep.

***

After a while I had gotten the room child proof. Now the twins wouldn't roll over and fall in their sleep.

I laid down behind them. One of my arms protectively was wrapped around the twins. The other arm finding it way to my stomach. This one isn't getting hurt either.

My eyes were heavy. But I couldn't fall asleep. But the kids had fallen asleep in seconds. I groaned as I held my eyes shut. The thoughts, all the negative ones flooding my mind. No Will, but that also led to no money, and I had a family of four now to feed. I would have to apply for a job in the morning.

After a while, exhaustion finally washed over me and I passed out. Just to be placed in a dream

I smelled that same scent that brought back
bittersweet memories. The memories were flooding
in. Will and I's first date. Talking about our future.
All those little romantic gestures. It was all there.
Fresh in my mind. And that I liked. The good
memories of Will, not the unfortunate ones.
That's when I heard his voice behind me.
I turned around in a flash. Well, however fast
a about six month pregnant female could turn.
And there he was. His body was translucent.
I reached out to touch him but his form flickered
the closer I got. My mind finally registered what
was going on. My eyes widened "Will..." my voice was desperate and broken. I couldn't believe my
eyes. I hardly did, but I decided with
what little hope I have felt, that was really Will Solance. I smiled, a broken, heart-shattering smile.
This had to be a trick. I couldn't possibly
be real. Could it? No, no it couldn't.
Will nodded "yeah, it's me Y/N" he said smiling
a bright smile. I reached out to touch him
again. His form evaporated where my hand
was placed. It was so odd. I was confused. What was happening? How was this happening? I decided not to question it "I love you"

I woke up that morning smiling. That was a actual good dreams. I still could faintly smell the scent of the cologne as I glanced around. My hand wasn't over the twins anymore, instead they were cuddling together. But my other hand was still placed protectively on my stomach