Holy shit! How is this possible? How did I get to be so blessed? Holy shit! I can't wait to tell Blake! My thought wonder to the doctors concerns and the fact that it's a high risk pregnancy because of my age. What if something is wrong with the baby? Our relationship still feels new even though we have been together a year. We haven't even had a big fight yet. Could we make through if something is wrong? Can I raise a special needs baby and three boys on my own?
My mind was so wrapped up I didn't even realize I was pulling into Gavin's drive way. Oh shit Gavin! Eventually he would know. Was he going to make a big scene about it? Stop it. Didn't I just get done telling Blake not to worry! Plus the doctor said low stress is a big deal. I don't think she knows who I am or what my life is like!
I go up to the door and ring the bell. I hear little feet running toward the door and it flys open with Zuma bounding through it! Gosh I miss them when they are gone! King is right behind him with the biggest smile on his face. Gavin is carrying Pollo, who is wiggling trying to break free. Without saying a word or looking at Gavin I take my baby from him, hugging him so tight.
"Boys go get your bags so we can get home" I tell them and they bound down the hall.
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"Mom, is Blake home yet?" King asks when we are in the car.
"He is on his way sweetie. His plane lands in a few hours."
"I miss him!" King says quietly.
"Yeah Blake makes everything fun" Zuma exclaims.
This makes my heart melt to know that he is just as important to my boys as he is to me. He really is the missing piece in my life I knew was missing but ignored.
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The boys are in the study finishing homework that their dad didn't make them do, of course. Apollo is napping before dinner. My ears are listening for the sound of a car on the driveway and a car door, but I hear nothing. I call and order pizza, not feeling like cooking.
As I hang up the phone I hear it. The car door shutting. I squeal and run for the door. I feel like a teenager running to the door with the high school hottie waiting on the other side. I fling it open just as Blake is pulling out his keys. I throw myself in his arms, and they instantly wrap around my waist. I snuggle my face into his shirt and take a deep breath through my nose. He kisses the top of my head and suddenly I feel the need to feel his lips on mine. Just as our lips are about to touch.......
"Blake" the boys yell as they come running towards us. I move to step back so he can huge the boys but he doesn't completely let go. He Hughes the boys with one arm, while still holding onto me with the other.
"Blake we missed you a lot!" Zuma says
"Blake I'm glad your home. Zuma lets go finish our homework so we can play with Blake." King says
They bound down the hall discussing what to do first. I turn to see the biggest grin on my cowboys face. We knew Blake meant a lot to the boys but King has been more shy about expressing this and I could tell that what he said made Blake's day. Little did he know I was gonna make this the most unforgettable day for us yet.
Since the boys had disappeared down the hall I jumped at my chance to kiss my cowboy. The moment my lips meet his, it's like we are the only two in the world and all I need is more of him. Next thing I know I'm pushing him against the wall in the doorway. He hands grab my ass making both of us moan. My hands go to his curls while my tongue brushes his lips asking for access. His lips part as he moans and I shove my tongue in his mouth as we start the dance of our make out sessions.
As the heat only continues to grow, we pull back knowing that if we don't stop now, we won't be able to. So we stand there our foreheads touching, trying to catch our breaths. We hear that little cry that breaks my heart and let's me know my baby is awake. I pull away and head toward Apollo's room but I feel that calloused hand grab my wrist.
"Blake I have to...."
"Let me get him" Blake interrupts
As much as I like to be the one to get him up I relent and let Blake go, knowing how excited Apollo will be to see Blake. My thoughts are confirmed as I hear "Bwake!!!!!". A smile takes over my face, as I am reminded of how truly blessed I am to have my cowboy!
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That night after we eat pizza, the boys pick out a movie and we settle down on the couch to watch. I look at Blake as the movie starts with Apollo curled up against his chest, Zuma nuzzled into his side between us, and King curled up next me snuggling.
"Thank you" he mouths. Even though I know what he means, I give him a questioning playful look. He mouths "family". We watch the movie to the end even though all three of the kids were fast asleep half way through it. We both carefully get up. He hands Apollo to me and carefully so not to wake him up he cradles Zuma and carries him to his bed. Then he comes back and does the same with King. Once the two oldest are in bed we go together to put Apollo to bed.
I lay him in his crib and Blake walks up from behind me and wraps his arms around my waist. We stand there watching him sleep, so tiny and peaceful. I grab Blake's hand and head to our room. Once on the bed Blake leans in to kiss me but I stop him.
"So I went to the doctor today."
His face falls and I can see the worry written across his face.
"Blake I see the way you are with Apollo and how much you long for a baby like him that's yours."
"Gwen we have talked about this please don't start..."
"Let me finish please."
He nods his head so I continue.
"Every time I see you look at Apollo with love or run to him when he cries I die inside a little. Until today Blake."
By the look an his face I can tell he hasn't gotten it yet so I continue.
" You are a great step dad and I know you gonna be just as great of dad."
His expression goes from confusion to total shock and I know he gets it now.
