"She usually eats about every four hours or so. I'm not sure what she will do since she is gonna be getting a bottle, so whatever you get in her is fine. If for some reason she absolutely refuses after like four and a half hours just call me and I'll have to come get her. Any questions you have just call me. ANYTHING." I tell my mom trying not to completely freak out leaving my baby for the first full day.
"Gwen honey you act like I have never had a baby. We will be fine. You survived" my mom giggles
"I know mom it's just a lot harder than I thought to leave her."
"I know honey leaving for the first time is always hard no matter how many kids you have."
I bend over kissing my baby girls cheek as she lays on the blanket playing with one of her toys.
"Mommy love you Addie. Mommy and daddy will be back to get you tonight." I tell her turning around hugging my mom and head out the door.
As I walk away the tears fall down my cheeks. I wipe them away right before I get in the car not wanting to ruin the boys day by crying cause I miss Addie or because I feel like an awful mom leaving her not knowing how she is gonna eat from the bottle. Guilt. I feel guilty. I open the door and get in. I turn and look at the boy.
"Who's ready for a Disney day?" I ask them all
"Me" they all scream at the top of their lungs including Blake. I just laugh turn around in my seat and nod at Blake to let him know all is ready to go.
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The whole drive to Disney the boys are telling Blake all about our last trip there and all of their favorite rides. As we are walking in Blake wraps his arm around my waist while I'm pushing Apollo in the stroller.
"Sunshine are you ok?" He asks with a half worried look on his face
I love how attentive to me he is. He knows that even though it's gonna be a fun day and all about the boys, I'm gonna struggle not having Addie with us.
"I'm good cowboy. But thank you for checking." I smile up at him I stop walking a second giving him my pout, my sign I need a kiss. He chuckles and leans down to give in.
"Eww mom are you guys gonna do that all day?" Zuma buts in
Blake and I laugh shaking our heads. Meanwhile I bend down grabbing Zuma planting kisses all over his face.
"Maybe" I joke making him laugh
The first ride we come to is It's A Small World. This one is Apollo's favorite. He lets everyone know by yelling...
"Momma my favwit my favwit!!!!"
"Yeah baby it is you favorite!" I say leaning down to get him out of the stroller but he starts pushing my hands away
"NO BWAKEY BWAKEY!!! Bwakey take me!" He screams
"Ok then cowboy he is apparently yours for this one."
Blake chuckles at the pouting face I make as my baby picks him over me. However inside my heart is swelling. My kids have taken to Blake so well, and with the character of their father I'm glad they have Blake. He is setting the example for them of how a real man treats a woman. I want my boys to be respectful men and thanks to Blake I now have faith they will. I'm brought out of my thoughts as the ride ends and we move on to the next one, the tea cups. Apollo once again insists on sitting with Blake.
