Having our whole little family on Blake's ranch makes me feel like we have the perfect life. Waking up to the beautiful sunrise and a hot cup of tea is the most peaceful thing ever. As much as I love LA, I'm beginning to love this place more. Some day I'm bring the whole family here, mom and dad too!
"There you are sunshine. I woke up and you were gone, thought you had run away."
"Never." I say standing up so he can sit down.
I sit back down in his lap as his arms snake around my expanding belly. We decided after this trip we weren't gonna hide it anymore. It's getting to hard. I'm 5 months pregnant now and all baby. Sweatshirts, even Blake's, aren't hiding it well anymore. I perfectly fine with everyone know, Blake is just nervous about what they will say and how it will effect me. He is so protective over me especially since we talked with the Doctor about the risks because of my age. I wanted him to hear it from her so she could answer his questions. He is a smart guy. He doesn't always show that but I knew he would have questions that he needed to have answered by a doctor.
"Hey we need to talk before the ultrasound next week. Do we want to know the gender if they can find it this time? I know you had mixed feelings last time." I ask him
"I think we should. I want you to be able to decorate the nursery the way you want. I know your dying to buy cloths too." He answered
" Blake I don't want you do pick based on what I want, I want it to be what you want."
"Gwen what you want and what I want are the same things. I want you to be happy. I can wait or we can find out."
"So we are finding out?"
"We are."
"Eeeekkk" comes from me as I twist and kiss my cowboy.
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Blake and I left the boys with the nanny and Blake's mom, while we went shopping for baby furniture for the ranch. We could get the furniture without knowing the gender we just couldn't buy the bedding and accessories. I found some there that I loved for the LA house too. So Blake had them ship it there next week so we would be home to get it in and set it up.
I'm to the point where I get tired after a few hours on my feet so we made our way back to the truck and Blake started the drive back to the ranch. When we got there the boys were throwing football in the yard and Apollo was sitting in Dots lap. As soon as I got out there were arms wrapping around my waist and leg. They flocked to Blake next, him pretending fall because of the hard hit. They all fell into a heap laughing and squealing.
"Ok boys lets head inside wash up and have some chill time before dinner." I tell them, Apollo needed a nap before dinner.
When we open the door the curtains are drawn and the lights are out. Without thinking about it I just walk over and turn the light on.
"SURPRISE!!!!!"
There is like twenty people in our living room. A diaper tower and a table full of wrapped presents. My sister, my mom, my dad, Todd, Jen, Pharell, Adam, Behati, and a bunch of our other friends from LA. Tears started pouring down my face. I hadn't expected this. I never expected to have some of these people that I loved so much at the ranch. Blake came up behind me and I turned around a fell apart in his arms. To know that he would get all of these people here and that they would all come out of their comfort zones to throw a baby shower for me. I was blown away. I still struggled some with that senses of unworthiness left by Gavin. It's no where near as bad thanks to Blake but Gavin had never been this caring or excited about me having anyone of our boys.
