The boys last day of School was last week. They were at their dads for the rest of week while I get everything packed for the tour. I'm beyond excited for this. Never in a million years did I think I would have a new album out or be getting ready to go on tour again. However unbelievable that is, it is nothing compared to how crazy my personal life has been. I went from the lowest of lows to the highest yet. One day I'm married with 3 kids, not happily but still married, to the next divorced and a single mom. Then out of nowhere I find love when I wasn't even thinking about it.
Blake Shelton, who knew! Who knew he would be the shoulder I would cry on. Who knew he would be going through the exact same thing at the exact same time. Who knew that our supportive friendship would turn into so much more than a friendship. If you would have told me a year ago that at this time I would be divorced and dating Blake Shelton, I would have laugh in your face and told you that you were way past crazy. Yet here I am and to be totally honest with myself I couldn't be happier.
The boys were coming with me on the tour bus. Packing for me and three boys is rather stressful! I had forgotten how hard it was to pack for kids knowing you would be gone for months. I haven't toured since King was little and packing for one was way easier than packing for three. I am glad the boys are coming with me though. The time they spend away with their dad, kills me and the thought of not having them all summer made me almost cancel the idea of a tour. Thanks to many talks between lawyers their dad finally agreed it would be best for them to go with me.
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Tonight is the fourth stop on the tour, Camden NJ. Opening night was everything I hoped it would be! Sold out crowd, my singing was dead on, no big issues, and the most important thing is that my four boys were there watching and supporting me. I was so happy that Blake was there for the first one. I would never say it out loud, but I think he knew, I was nervous and having him there calmed my nerves.
He hadn't been there for the third show but he was back with us for this stop. I knew I was gonna pull him on stage with me to do the duet. The first time we did the duet on the voice was intense. The electricity between us was off the charts! I thought it would be less the more we performed it but boy was I wrong. God, I'm so whipped! It's so amazing to have a man at my side that doesn't criticize every move I make and constantly supports me. We both had it rough in our last relationships. Now we crave that love and positive attention we hadn't had for so long.
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The jersey crowd was great so much energy to feed off of! The duet was hot. I kicked myself for not making that last in the set list because it took all the will power I had not to jump he when he kissed me at the end! That was one thing I never understood, with Gavin I never felt like that when he kissed me. There was no passion behind it, it was more like he did it cause he felt he had to. But with Blake, whether it be a sweet soft kiss or a long hard kiss, it left me craving more and my thong soaked. How did one man have so much power over me physically. I loved everything about it, about us.
Todd and Jen flew in for tonight's show too since Blake was gonna be here. We left the kids with the nanny and the four of us went out to eat.
"It's so nice to have a grown ups night out! Between performing and having 3 kids on the bus I feel like I haven't stopped since we left LA!" I said
"Why don't you let Todd and I stay on the bus with the kids tonight and you guys stay in a hotel room? That way you get some alone time and you get a break." Jen responded
