I open the huge door and am hit by my favorite smell, pine and outside, the smell of my cowboy.
"Sunshine we aren't moving here ya know" Blake says lugging two of my three suitcases
"I know but I never know what I'm gonna need, plus we are going to ur concert and I want to look good" I say following him into our room.
Wow I get to say our room I love the sound of that! He pulls me into him and kisses me soft but filled with meaning.
"How many times do I have to tell you that you could wear a trash bag and still be the most beautiful person there!"
I blush at his declaration. Before Blake I never thought of myself as beautiful. To me beauty was achieved with makeup and fashion. It had nothing to do with what's underneath all of. But Blake has slowly but surely made me realize that beauty is what we say it is and as long as we feel beautiful then we are beautiful. When I'm with Blake I feel beautiful.
I'm 3 and half months pregnant and I have a bump now. It's small and says with cloths it's not noticeable yet but I feel like I'm huge already. Pregnancy does that to people. Makes you feel like a huge but the everyone else you look the same. This trip was planned because we need to tell his family and my brother and his wife. It was hard keeping it from them but we wanted them to come and surprise them at the same time.
I can't believe the boys haven't spilled the news but we have reminded everyday that it is a secret. We usually get the "we know don't tell anyone about the baby" response but it's kept them from telling so far.
"Gwen..... Earth to Gwen" Blake calls
"I zoned out again didn't I"
"Yeah but I think it's cute when ur thinking"
"You spoil me ya know" I say while I wrap my arms around his waist while pressing my cheek into his chest.
"I only speak the truth sunshine"
We stand there in each other's arms for what felt like seconds but had to have been minuets as we hear feet running towards our room.
"Mom! Blake!" Both boys yell coming in the room followed by Stella
"Mom can we go fishing pleeeeeease???" King begs
As much as I want to give in we all need to get ready to go to Blake's moms house for dinner with everyone. We are going to tell them tonight since everyone is gonna be there including Blake's sister Endy and her family.
"Not tonight kiddos we have to get ready for family dinner" Blake explains
"Awwwwww" the kids all say in unison
"But I promise we will do some fishing before we go home." Blake ensures
They run out of the room and I yell after them to get changed and shoes on.
Blake pulls me right back into his arms and mine snake around his back. I look up at him and smile at the sight of his huge grin.
"Cowboy I love your smile. But what's got you so happy?"
"You. The boys. Our baby." He says pulling back to put a hand on my baby bump.
"Let's get ready to make our families so excited"
"Ok cowboy. I love you!" I say planting a soft peck on his lips
"I love you more than words sunshine!"
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We pull into the driveway of Blake's moms house and the nerves are high. I don't know why I'm so nervous. I know they are going to be happy about it but there is that small part of me that thinks they will be upset that I'm the one he is starting a family with. Blake squeezes my hand because of course he reads me and knows I'm nervous. He is always there reminding me that I'm not in this alone, like in my past relationships. My cowboy supports me and goes through every chapter with me instead of beside me.
We all get out of the car and the kids go running inside probably to find Endy's kids. We walk up to the porch behind Jen and Todd.
"Go ahead in guys we will be in soon." Blake tells them before sitting in the chair and pulling me into his lap.
"Sunshine, what's going through you head? What are you thinking? I can tell your nervous. And believe me you have nothing to be nervous about. They are all going to be so excited."
"I know, I know they are going to be excited about the baby its just..." I trail off
"What sunshine? Tell me what's going on."
"What if they are upset that it's me you having a baby with. It's one thing for them to be accepting of us. Having a baby is a whole other level." I say looking down at my hands
Blake grabs my chin making me look at him.
"Gwen they love you. I can't think of a conversation I have had with them since they meet you, where they haven't asked about you or told me how perfect you are for me. They are going to be happy about all of it trust me honey."
He bends down and places a kiss on my forehead. I lean into it and close my eyes. He knows exactly what I need when I need it. Finally feeling ready we head in to dinner and ready to share our big secrete.
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After the best dinner and best night we finally crawl in bed. He lifts his arms for me and I wiggle into him placing my head on his chest. This is the one place in the world where I totally relax and feel like nothing can stop us.
"I told you they were going to be beyond excited about the baby" he says to me
"I'm so happy they are excited. I feel like we can relax now because everyone knows now. I can't believe your mom and sister cried so much!"
"They know how much I wanted kids and I talked to them regularly about the fights Miranda and I had about it. They also see how happy and content you make me. I finally found my other half. My forever."
I sigh and snuggle into him as close as we can get even though I know we can't get close enough to ever be enough. I close my eyes as sleep over takes me. I dream of a little curly hair baby with Blake's blue eyes. I could be any more content with life than I am right now.
