I take the boys into my moms while Blake stays in the car with Addie. As we walk to the door Zuma has a death grip on my hand. I look down at him and notice he has the saddest look on his face. We knock on the door and my mom opens it.
"There are my favorite boys!" Pattie says
"Nonna!" King and Apollo yell running in for a hug
"Zuma where is my hug?" Pattie asks
Zuma's hand tightens around mine as he moves behind me. I mouth I'm sorry to my mom as we make our way inside. I give my mom the bag with snacks and Apollo's toys in it.
"Alright boys dad and I are taking Addie to the doctor and then we will be back to have dinner here ok?"
"Ok mom." King says giving me a hug
"Bye bye mommy." Apollo says copying his brother and giving me a hug
I turn to Zuma who is still hiding behind me. I crouch down in front of him, seeing the tears filling his eyes.
"Baby whats the matter? Don't be upset your gonna have fun."
"Please mommy can I go with you?"
"Baby it's going be no fun. We are just going to the doctor."
"I don't care. I'll be good I promise." He begs
"Please mommy I want to go with you and daddy." He says breaking down into sobs
I pull him into my chest rubbing his back. I look at my mom over his back and watch as she gives me a questioning look. I mouth I don't know.
"Ok baby. Please don't cry. You can come with us, but you have to promise to be good."
"I promise mommy I'll be very good and help with sissy. Thank you mommy!"
"Alright so I'm taking Zuma with me. We will all be back right before dinner." I tell my mom
"Ok sounds good honey we have everything covered here. Bye Zuma." Pattie says
Zuma runs over to her now giving her a big hug.
"Bye Nonna. I love you." He says before running to open the door for me
"Love you to Zuma." Pattie returns
With that Zuma and I head back out the door to the car with a waiting Blake and Addie inside.
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We open the car doors to get inside.
"Zuma buddy why didn't you stay with Nonna?"
"I wanted come with you and mommy. I was sad so mommy said I could come."
"Ok buddy. Are you ok now?"
"Yep" he says
Blake looks at me and I mouth later. We will talk to him later. I don't want him upset going into the doctors office. I can feel Blake searching my face to see if I'm upset. I am because something is obviously wrong, but I think I'm covering it pretty well. That is until I feel his hand come across the console and wrap around my tiny hand. I feel a tear slip down my cheek but quickly chase it away.
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We head into the doctors office. I'm carrying Addie and Zuma asked Blake to carry him. I had to laugh because Zuma is to big to be carried but the cowboy is so big it looks totally normal. My heart melts at the same time though. Zuma is old enough Blake had more than enough right to tell him he was a big boy and could walk himself. However Blake knew Zuma was having a hard day and obliged my son. The son that he accepts that is not even his. The son he doesn't have to care so much about. The son who's father would have told him to be a man and stop acting like a baby if Zuma asked him to carry him.
