So, we have been watching movies all night, but I have kinda been bouncing between sleep, watching movies and fear. The thunder is getting worse and not letting up. But when I get scared, Sam pulls my head to his chest and starts humming a random tune, instantly calming me. That's when I fall asleep, but the thunder always wakes me back up. Charlie had gone to bed a while ago, but Sam stayed so I wasn't alone. When the movie we watched ended, Sam clicked the T.V off and re-wrapped his arms around me when a loud clap of thunder shook the bunker a little bit. "I wish Dean was here.....he is much better at this than me." Sam said with a hopeless tone in his voice.
"Oh no. You are doing an amazing job. Just.....can you just keep talking? It's kinda calming." I say burying my face into his chest to hide my blush.
"Oh. Really? Ok. What do I talk about?" Sam said a little suprised.
"Oh. Anything really..." I murmur and he just hums in a response.
He does a lil,"aha!" and starts to hum a song, I don't know what it is but i don't care.
I can feel his chest vibrate and his heartbeat beating with the little song, my eyes begin to droop. I begin to kinda melt into Sams chest and I pull myself up and bury my face into the crook of his neck. I feel him stiffen but relax and continue humming. Soon I am out.
(Sams POV)
Castiel and I have obviously gotten very comfortable with each other lately, and I feel really bad for Dean. He is the one who really likes Cas, but...I don't know. I guess I might have feelings for him. Like, I know I'm Bi, but I just don't know. I like Cas as a friend, but right now with him in my arms. His face in my neck, the feeling of his steady breath against my neck, small snores coming out once in a while. Nobody has ever been this close to me, well no guy has. And it feels.....really good.
My train of thought if broken when hear a gush of wind burst out behind the couch and boots walking over. I look up and see Dean walking by. He freezes when he looks over and sees us. My eyes go wide and a venomous glare takes over Deans face,"Up. Get. Up now."
"I can't......he'll wake up..."I say sheepishly as I try and to move, but Cas whimpers and takes a fist full of my shirt.
Dean looks at Cas and smiles a lil, but looks at me and instantly frowns again, "He will be fine. Get up now, we need to talk." Dean growls and leaves the room.
I gently scoot out from under Cas and place a pillow under his head. Walking out, I see Dean sitting at a desk in the library with his head in his hands. "Hey......what did you want to talk about?" I ask and Dean looks up, eyes a little bit pink.
"Sam. I'm trying here. I am trying to get Cas to forgive me and possibly like me. And you do this?! Cuddling with my crush?! What kind of brother does that?!" Dean said getting a bit louder than I'd like.
"Dean. Calm down. If you were here, you would have seen how scared he was. I was only holding him because it helped him. It wasn't like I planned on cuddling your boyfriend. I was just trying to help. Sorry." I finally finished and looks down at my feet.
"Sammy......I'm sorry. I just......I'm jealous you can bond with anything under the sun. While I can barely talk to somebody without them thinking I'm some jerk or douche bag." Dean says with a frustrated huff, looking at down at his feet.
"Dean. I'm only gonna tell you this. Cas likes you, I know. I see the way he looks at you sometimes. It's the look of him wanting to trust you and wanting you to prove you like him. But, if he changes his mind Dean, you are gonna have to deal with it. You can't pressure him." I say as I pat Dean on the shoulder.
"Now, I am going to get him in bed. I am gonna let him sleep wherever and with whoever he wants cause of the thunder. It's gonna go through tonight. See you tomorrow D. " I say and turns to walk out of the room, but freeze when I see a cute, half asleep Castiel.
"Hey Cassie. What are ya doin?" I asks softly.
"I'm scared......" Cas whimpers and stays in the doorway, rubbing his eyes.
I look at Dean and smile, seeing him smiling at Cas and daydreaming. "You wanna stay with Dean? I have to......go out. I'll be back in the morning." I say and pull Dean up to Cas.
Cas's eyes droop as he shrugs and slowly leans into Deans chest. Dean freezes and looks at me with wild eyes, shaking his head, but looks down and gently bends down and lifts Cas up. Carrying him up the stairs bridal style. I shake my head and sit back into the couch, already missing the feeling of Cass against me. I deside to pray, I pray when I am in troubling times or I am confused. I bow my head and begin,"Oh God. I don't know what to do, I think I have feelings for someone but I know it's wrong. Can you help me? Can you send me someone my own love? Please? Amen....." I finish and lift my head. I feel sleep beckoning me, so u get up and head to my room. Sleep followed shortly after.
Nobody's POV
While Sam is watching T.V, Dean is having a horrible flashback of what happened the last time Castiel stayed in his bed. Dean helps Cas out of his clothes, lifts the covers, and places Cas onto the bed. Walking around and gets in also. Once he is in, Cas feels the dip in the bed and moves over to Dean. He rests his head into Dean's chest and wraps his arms around his waist. Dean freezes again, but he takes Cas into his arms anyways. "Are you still awake?" Dean whispers but does not get a response.
"Well, since your asleep, I guess I will use this time to practice what I'm going to say when you are awake.....Cas...I'm sorry for how terrible I have been to you. I am just afraid of these feelings I am having right now, towards you. I know I like you, I don't hate you, but I think I like you. I know you are some eternal celestial being, but I also know you have feelings, like fear...and joy....and sadness. You even get shy...like when I sometimes get a little close and our hands brush together while we are walking. You even blush when I compliment you, or when I want you to listen to me and I grab your face and look you in the eyes. I see you feeling things, in your eyes, but I can never tell what you are thinking. Which isn't fair cause you always know what I'm thinking and feeling. But that's off topic, I know you have feelings towards me, whether they be bad or good. And I have feelings for you that are more than good. Damnit, I'm rambling. I just want to know if we can start over. If we could rebuild our friendship and have a possible relationship in the future. Would you take me?"
