Castiel's POV
I don't know what to do, I feel numb. I have never felt this kind of feeling before. The last thing I remember is Gabe telling me.....the thing...and I blacked out. When I came to, I was in a motel, tiny alcohol bottles everywhere. Tear stained pillows and crumpled sheets. I was dead tired and had a pounding headache, so I just layed there. All that was running through my mind was what happened yesterday at the cafe........what Gabe said.
~*~Flashback to the cafe~*~
"Cas. I'm so sorry." Gabe says sadly as he looks down at his hands.
"What are you talking about? Why are you sorry? Gabe? What did you do?" I ask kind of scared for what he may have done.
"I.....did nothing....But, I have the mission for you. I lied when I told you that I knew what your mission, how Dad said it so loud everyone could hear. Nobody heard......it was a secret mission. Your mission was-" Gabe began to say but I cut him off.
"Wait! You lied to me?! Why would you do that?! We are brothers, we are supposed to be honest with each other, not lie." I scold Gabe and all he does is shake his head.
"No. Castiel, you don't understand, I have Fathers mission for you. You have followed through with our little....deal. Now it is time for me to hold up my end of the bargain." Gabe says solemnly and I try my best to prepare for what me true mission was.
Like I said, I tried. What Gabe said next was something I thought I would never have to hear. I know our Father has sent some angels down to do.......special work. To get rid of some of the really dangerous men or women that roam this earth. "Cas......you have to...kill Dean Winchester."
~*~End of flashback~*~
A knocking at my motel door brought me out of my thoughts. I sigh, rolling off of the bed and instantly regret it, i stumble and fall next to my bed. I feel tears prick my eyes, I am so useless. There are hundreds of thousands of angels up in heaven that could have been picked to do this. I was always different, not like my brothers and sisters. They easily obeyed and listened to father. I was the one who got constantly punished and laughed at. I just don't understand why I have been given this mission. Why I have been treated the way I have been. I just don't know,"Hello? Castiel? Are you in there?" a voice calls out from the other side of the door.
I look up, confused. I don't recognize the voice, but I feel compelled to answer the door anyways. I stand up, wiping my eyes, I begin to walk to the door. The closer i got to the door, I could feel something pulling me closer. I reach down and grab the handle, pulling the door open, I see a smallish man standing there. He has light scruff and is wearing a t-shirt and a hoodie, with jeans and normal shoes. He felt familiar, but i still didn't know if i could trust him. "Umm, hello. Who are you?" I ask bluntly and the man laughs.
"Oh.....son. How you have always made me laugh." The man says smiling and I freeze.
"F..Father? Why are you here? What are......Why?" I stutter and he pulls me into the room.
"Well Castiel, i have been down on Earth since Gabe told me what happened to you. How you didn't hear me and what happened between you and Dean Winchester." Father said and I tense when he says Deans name.
I haven't seem Dean in like......a whole week. I have just been crashing in this motel and crying and screaming and throwing things. I payed the front desk a bit extra so they wouldn't call the police of come to my room. It was nice, but lonely not having anyone around. I could think or say anything I wanted and not have to worry about Gabriel reading my thoughts or Sam and....Dean hearing me. I am brought out of my thoughts when a hand waves in front of my face. "I am so sorry." I said quickly, my thoughts about Dean crushing me.
" Oh, it's fine son. I just thought I would come here and try to....explain why I gave you the mission." Father said and I just nod.
~*~Later that night~*~
At the moment, my Father and I are sitting in this motel, he is trying to get me to go back to the Winchesters. To go back to Dean. But i don't know if i could bring myself to, after just getting up and leaving. Not telling them where I am or why I left. I am ashamed, embarassed by how childish and dumb I was. But, in all honesty, if somebody was told they where sent to kill somebody that they had just fell in love with, I am pretty sure they would run away too. "Castiel, I am going to make a deal with you. I will not send any angels after him if you help him not be as......ruthless as he was in the past. If you can change him, he can live." Father says and I look up at him, I can feel tears prick my eyes.
" So he can live?" I ask a bit breathless.
"Yes Castiel, only if you help and change him. Once he screws up, it is all over." Father says and i rush over to him.
I wrap my arms around his neck and sob into his shoulder," Thank you.....Thank you so much..." I say in between sobs.
He stands there for a second, suprised, but then he wraps his arms around me. "OK. So you are going to go back and help change him now?" He asks and I pull back and nod vigorously.
Now, I am in a car, driving to the Winchesters. My palms are sweating and my legs are bouncing, I am so nervous, I don't know what to expect. I don't know how they are gonna respond to me, first of all just up and leaving. But, then to just walk through the front doors, I don't know of they will be furious or releaved or if they just didn't care to look for me. I guess all questions will be answered when i get there.
