prism [ kim s.j ] ( fin )

† 54

     their hands are cold, stiff, dead weight, warm, one overlapping the other.

     too much rattling, too much beeping, too much sirens. too much wailing. too much.

     "are you alright sir?" a medic asked, looking for vital signs and pulses and feeling her all over her neck and chest. he held her hand tighter, the only place he can every hold and feel.

     "is she alright?" he asked.

     "sir, i need to check her torso, if it is alright for you."

     jin's blood boiled, but he mumbled a yes. they know how to save her, they know how to take care of her — he doesn't.

     button after button, cleavage to the underwire to the belly button to faint crook of her hips from her pants. many medics must've done this, he thought — many boys, maybe.

     but all his mind could occupy on is the large scar from the top of her chest — she's breathing, thank god — searing down halfway to her belly button, pinkish, discoloured from her sickly pale skin.

     "she had surgery before," the man, the medic, talks through the device from his ear. "looks like she suffers from —"

     "stage four esophageal cancer..." he muttered.

     "esophageal cancer, stage four. on painkillers right now and still stirring. sorry," the medic asked the shaking, near deranged man holding the patient's hand to white chalk. he'll check up on her hand later — the iv needs to go in there again. "did she had a drink?"

     "she was drunk when i came, holding a bottle of gin..."

     "witnessed drunk with gin and – do you know what hospital her doctor is in?"

     he remembers clearly, and by the name of the hospital, they braced the vrooming and the wailing and the beeping and the shallow breaths that the oxygen tank mask fogs up on kyu's face.

     "sir, may i ask for her name?"

     "park soo kyu..."

     "do you have any telephone details of her family?"

     "she has none."

     "well, what is your relationship with the patient?"

     he spoke of dreams and hopes and promises they never spoke of. "she's my fiancée."

   

  

  

    

ik i said that i will update 56-60 tomorrow but physics and a lot more things got to me so it may be delayed ( i just need to do the last 3 chapters and i want to make them good )

y'all lowkey awesome cos 1.7k and nearly 400 votes istg y'all are amazing <3

namjoon's story is going first , with yixing's coming second ( but i really need to know what you guys want cos i only have, like, 4 voters .-. )