Pretty Boys // cashton + muke \\

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Chapter 30 (edited May 2021)

Warnings: mentions of rape (cal) ; an explicit gif in the middle; shower sex (muke)

"I was raped," Calum said before his mind had time to catch up with his vocal chords. Ashton was stunned into silence, his eyebrows raising high as he took a small step back.

"You what?" Ashton asked, his voice barely above a whisper. Calum sighed, running his fingers through his hair as he tried hard to collect his thoughts.

"Okay, sit down, this is kind of a long story but I need you to just listen," Calum said. Ashton nodded, slowly sitting himself down on the couch, hands pressed between his knees. Calum hesitantly sat on the coffee table, smoothing out his skirt. He bit his lip, clearing his throat before looking up at Ashton again.

"When we first met, do you remember how I told you that I was homeschooled and took two grades at once?" Calum asked.

"Yeah, you said it was because of... personal issues?" Ashton asked, trying to connect dots that he couldn't properly see yet.

"I started homeschooling right before tenth grade," Calum said, swallowing down the lump in his throat. "I was only fifteen at the time but Luke and I used to go out a lot, especially at night. We would sneak out and meet up with some of our older friends. We would get high or drink, but there was this one night, I can only remember bits of it but... it was really bad. I didn't really feel like drinking or smoking so I just hung back."

He paused, sliding his hands against his skirt. "Luke and I were at some party with a bunch of older guys and girls and as per usual Luke was already wasted so I was trying to find him so we could walk home," Calum took a shaky breath, trying hard not to break. Ashton's facial expression softened from confusion to concern, the dots slowly coming into focus. He carefully took Calum's hand in his, rubbing his thumb over his knuckles soothingly as the boy continued to speak against a tight throat.

"Um, I couldn't find Luke anywhere downstairs so I went upstairs. There were a bunch of rooms filled with people getting high and, I think you get the point that this story doesn't end with me getting Luke and I home safely," he laughed breathily to cover the sob that desperately wanted out of his throat. "That night... I was raped. I remember screaming and yelling for help but everything was too loud and I just, I couldn't stop it. After that, I tried going back to school but I just fell into this huge pit of depression and anxiety. I would have at least two, hour long anxiety attacks while at school, so my mom pulled me out. Even doing homeschooling, I could barely focus on the work and my head was just always so clouded. I kept getting sick and I was gaining all this weight and finally, my mom took me to the doctors. I still don't really understand all the technical stuff about it, but I was pregnant," he watched Ashton's face carefully, but the man just nodded for him to continue.

"I didn't have a job and I just couldn't raise a baby in the mental state I was in, so I had an abortion." Ashton looked completely and utterly confused. He knew exactly what was happening, yet he couldn't wrap his head around the fact that his boyfriend had the ability to get pregnant.

"Cal, I don't know what to say, I don't know what I can say," Ashton shook his head, rubbing a hand over his face. Calum smiled small and understandingly.

"It's okay. I'm going to go home and let you think it all over. If you have any questions or anything, just call me, okay?" Calum said as he got up from the coffee table and started putting his shoes on. Ashton shook his head, following the boy to the door.