Fat Ugly Lies

Chapter 5

I keep forgetting to put this in here but I'd like to thank LunaSheep  and Sugar_cherries for the endless support they give and how nice they've been to the story. If this was a novel, their names would definitely be on the dedications page! Thanks so much, you guys!!!

It's the end of the school day.
I hear the the door handle rattling.
The bathrooms are being unlocked.
I quickly run into a toilet and shut the door.

The lock is firmly in place.
I check multiple times.
Within seconds the bathroom is filled,
With seemingly hundreds,
Though probably just over 20,
Of adolescent females, their voices swirling around, jumbled up and loud.

Now was a chance to escape.
I unlocked the door.
Slowly, I eased it open, as silently as possible.
I began to creep out.

Oh my God! Fatty's here? How did we miss her come in?
Shit.
Probably because she was hiding in here, skiving lessons.
Shit.
That's not surprising, she should do this more often, we'll see less of her ugly face then!
Shit.
You'd think with everyone hating her, she would've considered being homeschooled but NO she's too damn stubborn.
Fuck this. I need to leave.

I push past them all.
They're laughing at me.
Too much laughter fills my ears,
It's making my head spin,
My vision is going blurry.

It's happening again

My palms are going clammy,
I feel faint,
I need to get somewhere, somewhere safe,

My head is pounding,
Did someone start playing the drums?
All I can see is blurred colour,
A big hazy blob,

My throat is clogged,
I can't breathe,
I'm probably hyperventilating,
But I wouldn't know,
I'm not quite sure of anything,

Including my legs,
I have no idea where they are taking me,
I could be going to fucking China for all I know,
Or care for that matter,
They're about to give way,
I can't continue,

Everything aches,
My head,
My legs,
My heart,
It's throbbing -I can hear it in my ears,
Somebody help me. Please.

Hey? Hey are you okay? Oh shit! You're having one of those attacks! Alright, listen if you can here me, try to breathe. Slowly. Even out your breath. Inhale. Exhale.

I do as I'm told. My throat is causing obstruction for my breath. But I count regardless.
Inhale -count 1
Exhale -count 2 and etc.
It's working, the lump is getting smaller.

Ok, good. Now, hold on to me. Let me get you to medical. Can you walk?

I nod my head. But they can tell I'm lying.
I'm still not sure who the voice belongs to.
My vision is still blurred and I can't detect a gender.
It's like an angel, guiding me.

They help me to my feet,
Though I never remember falling to the floor.
I must be heavy.
But they don't seem to care.

We're almost there, just keep taking deep breaths. Come on. You're gonna be alright.

I actually believe them.
For whatever crazy reason.
And I mean crazy because

I don't know who they are,
Whether they're a girl or a boy,
A teacher or a student,

And yet, I believe them.
I'm putting my full trust in them.
Because just this once, I have someone.
And I might just be alright.