Fat Ugly Lies

Chapter 21

I quietly waited at the side,
Until you both were finished,
With your "business"

I wasn't in broad daylight,
That would of been weird,
And slightly creepy.

I was hiding,
Away from view,
I was good at that,
Despite my size.

I heard a giggle than murmurs of goodbyes,
I wanted to gag,
It was extremely off putting,
And disturbing,
I could feel the vomit surfacing.

But I held it down,
Because people actually did this stuff,
And it's not my right to think of it as disgusting,
Or weird,

It was just
Life.
And I had to accept it.

I tried to seem as casual as possible,
When I strolled back into view,
And apparently it worked.

The girl saw me and beamed,
An extremely large grin,
Grew across her face.
The phrase,
Smiling from ear to ear,
Could never be taken more literally.

Hey it's you! Glad to see you're okay! I wanted to call, or talk to you but I had absolutely no information about you -which was annoying. Maybe we could hang out some time this week.

She rambled while remaining incredibly happy.
How can someone be so nice?
It wasn't fair.

She's the person,
The girlfriend that you are cheating on my brother with,
But even though I want to hate her,
And feel like I should,

I can't,
She's impossible to hate.
And it's not her fault anyway.

It's not like she knows,
That you already have a boyfriend,
That you're taken,
Off limits,
Other words that you probably don't know the meaning of.

So yeah,
It's your fault,
Not hers,

So I can continue to be friends with her,
And it wouldn't be betraying my brother,
At least I hoped it wouldn't.

So regarding what happened at the lockers, are you his girlfriend now?
I enquired,
Casually, as if it didn't effect me,
As if it was an everyday conversation starter.

Her cheeks seemed to glow red,
Clearly yes,
But I waited for her to answer anyway.

Haha yeah, can you believe it?! He's one of the most popular people in school and he asked me of all people out!! He's so gentlemanly and kind, it's unbelievable! Nothing like how he's described by the nerds. I think they just over exaggerate everything.

No darling they don't.
You're being played.
But I faked being happy for her,
With "oh you're so lucky" and "aw how cute!" And other things like that.
Hoping she wouldn't see past it.

She bought it.
Thank god.
She seemed so happy about it all.
Like my brother.

I couldn't do something as horrible as tell either of them.
I just couldn't bring myself to it.
But there was someone who could.

You

And I was going to find you.
And I was going to force answers out of you,
Because what you did was not okay,
And there was no one better to break the news,
Other than the culprit himself.