Fat Ugly Lies

Chapter 24

Fear

A single word.

A simple word.

But the four letters captured my chaotic emotions perfectly,
Caged the most complex, the most warped feelings,
Into a word we all understood.

Your fist collided with my right cheek,

There wasn't a crack,
Like there was with your jaw.

I thanked the gods above,
for the first time ever,
That I had thick coatings of fat layered across my whole,

It still hurt

It would still bruise,

But nothing,
Nothing physical at least,
Was broken.

You went for another swing,

The innermost part of me was screaming to retaliate,
But I'd exerted my powers in the first hit,
I'd done my deed,
So I reverted to my old ways,
And just stood,
Still
Silent

And let myself crumble,

Taking each punch, each kick,
As if it meant nothing,
As if I felt nothing,

But that couldn't have been farther from the truth.

I was still sore from the last encounter,
You seemed to remember,
Because your knee,
Drove into exactly the same spot
As it always does,
As your henchman always hit,

I don't think the prominent purple patch
Covering my stomach,
Will ever fade,
Or heal remotely.

But I'd gotten used to ignoring the throb,

The intensity of the pulsation,
Stronger than the initial attack,
Would lessen
Given time.

My lack of reaction,
Was infuriating you,

I could see it in your eyes,
That were burning in flames of rage.

You wanted to carry on,
Releasing the pent up everything,
Onto a punching bag,
Onto me,

But it was no fun without a reaction.

So you stopped.

You sighed deeply.
And you left nonchalantly.
As if nothing had happened.

As if you hadn't just inflicted so much pain upon someone,
That they thought they may pass out,
That they were ready to vomit their insides out,
That their want to just die, grew so much stronger.

You just left.

I swallowed the lump building in my throat.
I couldn't afford to spare you any of my tears.

Whoa, it's a random update! I'm as shook as you. I doubt there'll be more anytime soon, I've kind of stopped writing anything altogether (from realisation of how bad I am, probably). Any updates will be spontaneous and not at all regular so, keep an eye out I guess.