Fat Ugly Lies

Chapter 23

When I see your face,
I think to myself
Screw morals

Fuck the rules
If you don't have to follow them
Why the fuck should I?

I'd happily shoot you
If I had a gun

I'd scream to the high heavens
If I had the voice
Becuase you are just so fucking infuriating

Your face that everyone sees as beautiful,
To me is just a scribble,
In thick black pen,

To me, you have snake eyes,
To me, your voice is a screech,
Never words,
Just incomprehensible noise,
Loud and irritating.

I shout at you

I'm not quite sure what I shout,
Something that was supposed to go
Oi Dickhead
But was probably just a mere squeak

But it made you look
So I can accept that it wasn't too embarrassing.

What do you want?
You asked, sharp and cold

The one thing I could appreciate about you
Not like, but appreciate,
Was that you unleashed your true self around me

No fake smiles and laughs
Just an icy darkness,
Your soul is a black fog

And buried inside the plume of decay and destruction,
May lie a heart
But it is too small to see

And it's locked away
In a cage of diamond
Because it's virtually indestructible
Which is how I'd describe the barrier around your heart.

The level of complexity behind you is amazing

I must admit.

You'd make for an incredible portrait,
But not by the hands of me
Never by the hands of me.

Is there something on my face or?
You begin and my train of thought engages the emergency break

No, sorry, just thinking
I stutter

Why did I apologise?
I'm afraid I don't know
I'm just stupid and apologetic

Becuase everything feels like its my fault
But I know I don't cause everything
That's not possible
Right?

I wanted to know
You raised a brow at me

Why?

I left it open for interpretation
I think you know exactly what I meant by it
You just wanted to get on my nerves
So you decided to be naive and ignorant

And say
What do you mean?

You know exactly what I mean and I want to know why!
What gives you the fucking right to do this to any of them?
I scream, balling my fists

My patience is wearing dangerously thin
I'm about to blow
I'm a bomb
Mere seconds till I detonate

5

Why not? It's not like either of them know

4

They're both so stupid and lovestruck, it's hilarious

3

She's so pitiful, like a puppy, she'll be heartbroken when I leave her

2

I can't believe your brother thought I was a fag, he disgusts me

1

I had the longest most hardcore shower  after I came home from your place.
Your house is horrifying no wonder you look like that.

Everything then happened much to fast

When my fist connected with your jaw
I could hear a crack
I pray that it was just my imagination

I am not a violent person
I've never been a violent person
So why,
Did I let it get to me so bad?

As soon as I saw the look of horror on your face
Warp into a devilish smirk,
And you balled your fists so tight,
Your knuckles turned white

I knew,
I'd made the biggest mistake of my life.

Hey guys, updates might take a while since its been a while since I've written this story. I need to get my mind back in the flow of this story. Also, I'm sorry if the style has changed slightly, as I mentioned, it's been a while sinceI've written anything for this story and my writing has changed since the last update. I hope you're enjoying this, it's a short story so I'm not quite sure how many chapters I'll make all together.