I didnt know when it started
Maybe when I dropped your favorite mug
Or when I wasnt able to defend our relationship
Maybe it was when our arguements were far more terrifying than that storm
Or when the smashed plates on our kitchen floor
Will never be as broken as we are
Maybe when you mom eyed me like Im worthless
And I told you that you do actually deserve better
Maybe when you cried and told me its just me.
You can't explain why its me but it just is.
Or maybe when you changed your mind
Maybe it was the time when Im on my knees reminding you its you for me and me for you
Or when you just shook your head
While my tears were disguised by the rain
And the breaking of my heart can be the bottles I've broken before coming to you
Maybe it was when we loved each other too much in different ways
At the same time.
I loved you till your better future
You loved me in the present beauty
I wanted the better for you
You wanted the better for me
I dont know when it started really
Maybe it was then or months before
Or maybe
It was when the planes of our lives got closer then intersected
Maybe we were meant to intersect
And was always meant to stray
Maybe we were meant to love each other at the same time once
Forever going further at distance
While we always loved each other at the wrongest time.
