You don't know the sound
Of not being enough
You dont know the feeling
Of trying
And getting nothing
You dont know the feeling
Of reaching
Reaching
In front
So close so near
Just to get snatched before my eyes
You don't know the feeling
Of being the last
Idea
Person
Choice
You don't know defeat like I do
If its writing in 1 am
You don't
Please
You dont know what it feels like
To feel so damn defeated
You can't even say it
The shame
The hurt
The pain
Of not being enough
You can't say it
Not aloud
You dont know defeat
Because I stayed up till 5 am
Just to feel okay
To remove the idea of endings
And hopelessness
The scare of losing
The trauma of not being
You dont know defeat like I do
If you write defeated
Falling in love for a person
Sadly at 1 am
Then you dont know
How it feels to write in front of the person
You wish
In broad daylight
Watching her smile
Her knowing you are writing
But not knowing the defeat
The inability
Inadequacy
The idea that I cant say it out loud
The way her eyes turn
To be the brightest brown Ive seen
You dont know defeat
You dont
You are accepting the paper of defeat at 1 am
I accept the idea of defeat
As a title
Because that was all I could ever have
So don't
The sound of defeat you are producing
Its not
Because defeat darling
I don't think it ever came to you
The way it fucked me over
Dont fucking tell me about the defeat
Of writing for the same person
That labels you as the loser
The one that cant have her
Dont fucking tell me that shit
Because fuck your defeat
Is a one round play
While I lost myself
To the whole game
So fuck your defeat
You dont know defeat like I do
You dont know how it feels
To write at every hour of a day
You just dont fucking know
What it was like to lose
To the game
Over and over again
This is how defeat looks like
Writing and writing
Words that won't be known
You don't know defeat like I do
