There is no such thing as an exact time
When you fell in love with a person
No such thing as an anniversary date
For a feeling always starts in the subconscious
For example I never really knew when it started
Maybe it was before I even got to sit in front of you
Or maybe the moment you first talked to me
All I know is that you were there
You were existing
Outside of my world
And by my world it means my mind
And then slowly it did happen
Im thinking and you are there
Im silent but I can hear your name
I guess the culminating moment is
When they asked me
"Who do you like"
And you were holding my arm
Eager to know the same
I looked at your eyes thinking
Isn't this the worst moment
To think that your name is on the tip of my tongue
Isn't this the worst time to be conscious about a certain feeling?
Then it was awareness after that.
Every thing
It was noticed
Noted
Remembered
Your name
The image of you
They are all in my head
Over and over and over again
The thing is
It was August
20 somethings
Rainy and tiring afternoon
On a milktea house
That has colorful straws
Was the first registered moment in my mind
That told me
"Shit girl you like her"
And everything
Everyday after
Was the start of every feeling
Because I still wake up to the idea that I like you differently everyday
Like it starts everyday
You confuse me everyday
You make me realize everyday
You make me feel everyday
You aren't an exact date
There is no exact moment for me
Because it grew
It wasn't like the others
It wasn't a jolt of lightning
It was a puppy growing
A flower blooming
A flame burning
The sun rising
It was change
And it took its sweet time
To make me realize
What it really is
And I believe
That the moment I exactly fell in love with you
Is exactly every counting second that passed right after that rainy day in August
That the moments of confusion and certainty were the precision
Every passing second is the accuracy
And it all answers the question
"When did I exactly fell in love with you?"
