my book of regrets // rants

things

more than anything, I want to be a concert journalist. I want to go to a concert and take pictures and write about the experience because concerts are great and if you haven't figured it out already, I love concerts. I want to capture the experience of someone else seeing someone they enjoy listening to in front of them.

i'd like to know simple medical procedures, just in case of an emergency. things like reacting to a seizure or asthma attack or to be able to know CPR.

I want to write for as long as I can. draw shitty drawings, sing, play music, use my creativity.

I want to analyze music. learn every single detail of a song and be able to use it, change it up or cover it with any instrument.

you know I'd probably be really bad at it, but I want to learn how to play the piano. I want to be able to play more than one instrument (which i guess I already can do, but i want to add on to the list)

I want to go to a fucking panic! concert. really bad.

I want to travel to different places and be able to describe the feeling of being there on paper. like if I were to read what I wrote about a place, I want to be able to take myself back there. I guess that comes into place with the concert journalism.

I want my work to be recognized, not by my past or present, but by the work itself, I guess. If I were to show you a picture of my face and you saw me in public, what would you do? like "oh shit whaddup its that girl who writes gay fanfiction but is straight???"

I want to live in los angeles just for the experience i guess, get a corgi and get a record player so I could blast doubt and also watch finding nemo with my corgi

I want to stop comparing myself to other people, my writing and my body image and my likes and dislikes. because guess the fuck what, everybody's different. and also let people have their own ways and opinions because if I wasn't allowed to have a corgi or watch finding nemo because everybody was against it, we'd have some problems.

also no I am not five years old I just really fucking love finding nemo