Suicide Note

Her

I arrive at my dreaded school. But, I guess it's not really that bad since I get to see her. I walk into school and try to remember what class I go for first period, but the thought instantly goes away when I started thinking of her. Then, as if I wished for her to be next to me, there she was, waving her hand at me and smiling just as always. But, she felt so distant, as if she wasn't really here. She started walking towards me, getting closer and closer yet almost even going more backwards. I wanted to ask and tell why she was so far away but the words wouldn't escape my mouth, what is happening to me, why is she so far away now? Her soft-spoken voice snapped me back to reality. "Hello, Eric." Her hand was holding mine and she leaned closer into me, resting her head on her shoulder, "So Eric, are you finally go tell your only friend Isaac to bug off, remember how he tried to hurt me, my relationship." These words astounded me, this isn't how she talks, this isn't her. I laughed it off like she was joking, "What are you laughing about?" She let go of my hand and got right in front of me, hands on her hips and tapping her feet like an impatient spoiled brat. "What's wrong?" I asked her, and she simply didn't respond. "I've put up with this long enough," her soft-spoken voice disappeared, now she sounded filled with anger, but this isn't the real her, I know she doesn't act like this. "Eric, I'm tired of using you."

I take a step back, "you're joking, I know you're not serious, this is just some silly joke." But she wasn't smiling, or laughing, or rolling on the floor crying on how hard she got me. She was just standing, she was just staring, she was just...she used me. I take another step back, "I love you," I told her as I quickly soon held my hand over my mouth. She then laughed, "well then, be a good boy and stop being friends with Isaac, I know you love me and I love myself too, so please just just stop being friends with him and be with me forever." She rushed towards me and hugged me, and also kissed me, but I did nothing, I stood still. She then reached in her pocket and pulled out a handgun, "I want you to kill him." I said nothing, I only nodded my head and she handed me the gun.

The school day kept going and going and then I saw Isaac in the hallway and I walked up to him and stopped him, we started to talk and he said how happy he was to see me at school, there was no one in the hallway just me and him, alone. I slowly reached for the gun in my back pocket and quickly pinned it to wear his head was, Isaac was paralyzed with fear. The joy in his eyes quickly faded away, and his eyes gave me a dead glance, as though I had already killed him. "Eric, put the gun down," he whispered to me in a smooth tone, but I refused to put it down, if I killed him, she would love me, if I killed him she wouldn't be hurt anymore, "IF I KILL YOU, SHE WILL BE HAPPY," I scream out loud and I quickly draw the gun towards my head and I pull the trigger.